"Don't you think it's too much of the Destiny??
Can I just live in peace for one second??
Jackson do I deserved this much pain?
Why her?, jackson why her?
Why can't I control my tears for that bitch??
Why??"
Lisa sobbed harder and harder in embrace of Jackson.Jackson was more than in pain than lisa. But he was listening to lisa's rattle about somebody who broke her.
What about me lisa?
I am breaking myself too.
Jackson just cried silently but never replied to lisa.Only way for lisa to assure is he is there for her and that's what he was doing.
He embraced her tight so that lisa could realized that he was right there for her.
"Shh baby it's fine.it's fine.I am here.you'll be okay."
Jackson soothes lisa.
"Am I that bad?
Did not I deserved any love?
I did everything for her Jackson.
I changed my everything but she just hurt me again and again."
Again lisa cried harder.remembering how jiyong remind her that how were he was intimate with Jennie the girl who she was in love with.
Hopelessly
In love with.
How can she be so stupid to give Jennie her all?
What was she hoping after jenkai drama?
Lisa was silently tearing apart.she was comfortable with this man's embrace.This man who was her safe heaven.her comforter.
"You know love came with full package of pain.you fight way much lisa.you loved her way much.
She was just a coward lisa.you're expecting way more from her.
She hurted you enough lisa.
It's time for you take control of you.
Let just give it a break."
Jackson begins to lectures.Lisa felt way more happy that finally Jackson speaks this words.
Lisa hugged Jackson again and replied
"When are you letting me go then Jackson?"
Jackson was dumbfounded he wanted to run from this situation.
Can I say never?
"What?"-jackson
"I said when are you letting me go?
I heard your words with your mom yesterday.
I was the women who broke you right?
And you're into drugs because of me right?
Jackson you loved me way more.I am destroying you unintentionally.
Please stop doing this to you.
I don't wanna lose you wang please??"
Lisa's voice cracked when she spilled it with heavy heart but she knows it's a right thing to do.
Jackson s tears were building in his orbs.
"Can I say never?
Can't I keep my feeling for you while you love other one ?"
Jackson pathetically asked.Lisa's heart felt heavier.Lisa can't take any of pain right now.
Lisa you did this to him.
"No you can't Jackson!!!
You can't loving me like this.you're choosing nothing but pain.
Please Jackson!!!
I am destroying you.
Let me go."
Lisa was down her knees same level with Jackson caressing his cheeks.
"But I can't lisa!!!
I tried to unlove you.I tried to replace you but it will always you."
Jackson was pleading to lisa to let him stay with her.Lisa was pleading Jackson to let her go.
"But it's not healthy Jackson.
You're destroying everything thing you love."
Lisa backfired.
"What if I tell you I am ready to be destroyed for you??
I won't ever asked you to love me back lisa.I won't ever asked you to not love jennie but can i stay there loving you in side???"
Jackson begged lisa at this point.Lisa feels pathetic for hurting this angel but she knew it was unfair.it was unfair for him said yes because she knows she'll never give him the love he have for her.
"Look at me!!!
I was fucking in love with Jennie for more than three years.
She betrayed me again and again.
Do you think I deserved that pain?"
Lisa asked helplessly.
"No you deserved everything.Jennie she is just unworthy for you.you're the most amazing person.
And she is the one who don't deserved your love lisa."
Jackson retorted.Lisa just sadly smiles and replied
"And I am unworthy for you.I gave you so much pain my Jacky without realizing.
it's hurted me to see you this much hurt because of me.
It's time for me to let go of her and you to let go of me.
I love you so much Jacky but I don't deserved you."
Lisa cried harder.Jackson feels heavier in his heart but soon replied
"Does it make you happy?"
"Yes it will Jackson.can you do it for me Jackson?"
Lisa asked him.Jackson noded his head and the rain stopped at the same time.
Both were soaked in rain.But both are ready to let go of their one sided feelings for somebody who doesnot worthy of that.
Again lisa determined to control herself.
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Control lili
Fanfiction"Baby why are you doing this to me? why are you hurting this much please speak." "No, we're not doing this anymore unnie." If you wanna know about the story please read kindly.
