Secrets, Bruised and Broken - Part 2 / Danisnotonfire Fanfiction

Chapter 16. Somethings Wrong

{ Ellie’s P.O.V }

[ Sunday Night ] 

Scottie had just left and this empty feeling had taken over, I wanted to talk to someone, but I was too afraid to show my face. I didn’t know why, I just did. So I turned on Dan and Phil’s show, it was a mistake for me to do so. It made the empty feeling stronger, I should’ve turned off their show, but I couldn’t. They both looked happy, unlike me. Sometime after, I ended up passing out, as I clutched my pillow and had tear stains on my cheeks.

[ A Few Days Later ]

Wednesday. I got up around 8 am, I had to work. I wasn’t feeling the best, the past few days have been hell. I had been nauseous and crabby, I didn’t wanna go to work. I barely got any sleep, I just wasn’t in the mood. I dressed in a slouchy dress and some black tights, with flats. I slowly walked to work, with a frown on my face. I wish I could get out of this mood, I wish I knew why I was in this mood. I walked sluggishly into the cafe, I was working with Joe, Alec and Scottie ( So Fun ). ” Hey Ellie, how are you feeling? ” Alec asked putting a hand on my shoulder, I only shrugged ( I was afraid to open my mouth, who knows what would come out ). The morning flew by fast, I didn’t do much, I mostly sat up at the counter and read through a book. When I got a lunch break, I sat down across from Joe and sighed. ” Not eating? Are you okay Ellie? ” he asked me. I shrugged. ” I guess, I’m just not feeling very well. I think the alcohol at your party had a bad effect on me, so I’m never drinking again ” I stated, he chuckled ” Ellie You’re probably just ill “. I rolled my eyes and nodded, Scottie soon joined us. ” Here Elle, I brought you a sandwich ” Scottie smiled, I sighed ” I’m not hungry “. He looked at me confused, ” Did you at least eat breakfast? ” he questioned. I shook my head no, ” I was up half the last night vomiting up my dinner ” I sighed. He looked down, ” That’s why you should eat something ” he stated. I rolled my eyes, ” Fine ” I stated taking a bite out of the sandwich. ” Happy? ” I questioned, Scottie smiled ” Yeah! “. Then about an hour later, I was in the bathroom, hovering over the toilet bowl. ” Elle, you okay? ” Alec shouted through the door, ” I… I’m fine. Just give me a minute ” I sighed in sort of a whisper. By this time, I was starting to think someone was trying to kill me. I quickly washed my hands and rinsed out my mouth, I slowly opened the door. ” Ellie, take a break if you need too ” Faye smiled, I nodded and quickly sat down in one of the booths.

I sat there for a few minutes, until I heard a familiar voice. ” Ellie, I see you ” Mara smirked from the entrance, I hadn’t seen her in a while. She was mostly getting ready for her move to America, because that’s where John ( Her Husband ) was originally from. She looked a lot more pregnant and her blond hair was now red, kinda orangish. ” Wow, you actually dyed your hair? When? ” I questioned, ” Before I found out about the little bun in the over…. Do you like it? ” she asked me. ” I love! How long left until the big move? ” I asked her, ” We’re leaving tonight actually, John’s finishing up something for work ” she smiled. ” Well I’m glad you came to say bye… Do you guys know what you’re having? ” I asked, she shook her head. ” We don’t care, as long as the baby’s healthy ” she stated, causing me to roll my eyes. ” That’s such a cliche answer, you both have to want something ” I smirked, she smiled ” Okay, you’re right. I would like a girl, but John swears that it’ll be a boy…. Actually, his whole family thinks it’s a boy “. I chuckled ” I hope it’s triplets, baby’s are so cute “, she glared at me playfully. ” You still must hate me Ellie, I thought we were friends now ” she exclaimed pretending to cry, I smiled at her. ” How are you Elle? ” she asked, I shrugged ” I’ve been fine, Except for this week tho. It’s been hell so far, I can’t keep anything down, I’m always tired and I’ve been grumpier than usual “. She smiled slightly, ” Are you sure you don’t have a bun in your oven? ” she asked quietly. I scoffed, ” No, their won’t be a bun in this oven for quite a while ” I stated. She smirked, ” Have you been to the doctors yet? ” she asked. I shook my head, ” Well if you’re feeling that bad, you should probably see a doctor ” she sighed. I nodded, but didn’t say anything further. ” So, how are you and Dan? ” she suddenly asked, I kind of just stared at her with this…. blank face. ” I don’t know, I haven’t talked to him since Saturday ” I sighed awkwardly, she sensed the hesitation in my voice, so she didn’t say anything else about Dan. We talked for a while longer, until she had to leave and I had to get back to work. The day dragged on as usual, when my work day ended, I waved to everyone and walked home. As I walked through the door, Bernie ran over to me ( Which told me he only wanted food ). I quickly fed him and changed into a lazy / comfortable outfit, then sat on the sofa. I sat their in silence for the longest time, I was thinking about this whole mess again. Dan and I’s relationship was rocky to begin with and then we just randomly had sex, which obviously just made things worse. I haven’t talked to him in 4 days, 4 days! I was hurt, scratch that, I am hurt! If I had more to drink that Dan, he’d have to remember something, right? Was Beth the reason he wasn’t talking to me, or is it because, it’s too awkward of a situation to be around me. I felt cheap and easy, honestly it was just a fucking one night stand. On my behalf, I didn’t know what I was doing ( Alright, I think I’ve said that enough ), sure I wanted to do it, but not like that. I wish I could just get over Dan and move on, I’m sick of waiting for something I could never have. Don’t ask me why I was waiting, he was in love with Beth and that was that. The negative thoughts were interrupted by a loud knock on the door, ” Come in ” I sighed. Scottie peaked around the corner, ” Hey, want some company? ” he asked. I smiled and nodded, ” Ellie, are you okay? Ever since the party, you’ve been acting weird…. and now your sick, what’s going on? ” he asked me. I looked down and stayed quiet, he sat next to me and put his hand on mine. ” Elle, you can tell me anything ” he smiled, I nodded. ” Well, you know how you told me I left with Dan that night and he didn’t seem nearly as drunk as I was? ” I asked, he nodded. ” Something happened…. I mean, I guess something happened, I can’t really remember anything from that night ” I explained, he stared at me confused, but didn’t interrupt me. ” I think Dan and I had sex ” I said quickly said without looking at him ( I thought he was going to harshly judge me ), he let out a sigh. ” What do you mean you think? If you’re unsure, how would you know? ” he asked, I shrugged. ” Well, we were both naked in my bed , so Yeah, I think we fucked! ” I exclaimed, he sighed, but stayed quiet. ” What makes it worse tho, is the fact that now he won’t talk to me ” I sighed sadly, ” What? ” he asked appalled. ” Yeah, it’s been 4 days. He won’t even just say hi and I’m too much of a coward to say hi to him ” I stated, ” You shouldn’t have to start the conversation, this isn’t your fault ” he sighed. I nodded, ” I wish I wasn’t caught up on him ” I whispered. He smiled ” I know, but don’t give up just yet. He may surprise you one day ” ( Why is Scottie defending Dan ), ” I thought you were on my side? ” I questioned. He chuckled ” I am, but Elle you always over think things. I don’t think he’s ignoring you because of… that. Maybe he’s busy, their radio show picked up and it’s getting good reviews, give it time “, I rolled my eyes ( Because I’m stubborn like that ). I then placed my head on his shoulder, ” Sometimes, I wish I would have met you long before Dan, I think there would have been a lot less drama between us ” I sighed ( It was the truth ). He smirked ” I know, but Dan was made for you, you’re supposed to be together. So you would’ve found each other eventually ” ( I wish people would stop saying that ), I nodded and sighed. ” Will you stay over, since I’m not feeling well ” I asked him ( I really just didn’t wanna be alone ), he nodded. ” I’ve got work at 8 am tho, so I might not be here when you wake up ” he stated, ” It’s okay ” I smiled. He grabbed the remote and switched on the TV, it caused me to chuckle. We sat there for hours, watching TV and talking. Scottie was right, I just needed to give this some time, maybe things would get better or at least go back to normal.

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Oh Gosh, Oh Gosh.. Drama! What do you guys think is gonna come from all this? I Hope You’re Enjoying the Story and Thank You so much for Reading <3