Secrets, Bruised and Broken - Part 2 / Danisnotonfire Fanfiction

Chapter 17. Seriously? Why me?

A few more days have gone by and still no word from Dan, I already realized that he wasn’t going to talk to me anytime soon. I texted him once, Thursday morning, just a simple ’ Hey ’ and I still got nothing. So, I gave up and stopped trying. I was feeling worse than before, I was forced awake at all hours of the night from being ill. I had massive cramps and bloating, But I didn’t know what was causing it. Faye gave me a few days off, to get some rest. Alice, Mara, Even Scottie think I’m more than ill, they all think I’m fucking pregnant. But there has to be some other explanation for this, I can’t be pregnant, No, just no, No. Against my will, Alice made me buy a pregnancy test. It was weird walking into the shop, picking one out, buying it. I felt like everyone is the shop was staring at me, judging me, It just felt wrong. I walked through my flat door with the small paper bag, I felt like shit. ( What if this thing comes out to be positive? What will I do then? ) I thought, but I shouldn’t worry about any of that now. I put the bag in the bathroom and walked into the kitchen, for the first time all week, I was actually hungry. I searched through my refrigerator and then through my freezer, that’s when I found a pint of strawberry ice cream ( Yay, my favorite ). I grabbed a bowl and a spoon and quickly dished some into the bowl, I reclined on the sofa and clicked onto Netflix. I searched through the many different TV shows as I stuffed ice cream into my mouth, I finally decided on having an American horror story Season 1 marathon. I was stalling, I was terrified of taking the test, it was bad enough I had to buy one, but now I had to take it. My phone started to ring shortly after, I thought about not answering it, but then I realized if I didn’t, someone would come looking for me and that was the last thing I wanted. ” Hello? ” I asked, ” Ellie? Have you taken the test yet? ” Alice asked. I rolled my eyes, ” No… ” I sighed. ” What are you waiting for? ” she asked, ” I don’t know, Alice I’m scared. What if I am pregnant? I don’t know if I can raise a child ” I stated. ” Do you want me to come over? ” she asked, ” No, I just wanna be alone ” I sighed. She paused, ” Ellie, if you are…. you know. You won’t have to do it alone, I think you’d be a great mom, I mean Liam and Lyle just love you ” she stated. ” I know ” I sighed, that was all I could really say. ” Just call me if you need too, but I’ll still talk to you tomorrow ” she sighed, ” Alright, talk to you later ” I stated as we both hung up. I looked back at the TV, I had to do it, I couldn’t blow it off forever.

I stood up and walked into my bathroom, my breath was caught in my throat. I quickly read the directions, all tho they weren’t difficult to understand ( Pee on a stick, wait 5 minutes, if it’s a + sign you’re pregnant, if it’s a - sign you’re not ). I followed the directions and quickly set a timer, then I sat on the sofa and waited. I couldn’t watch TV, I couldn’t eat anymore of my ice cream. My head was spinning and my stomach was churning. I took a deep breath in, if this test was positive, I wasn’t going to keep it a secret. I’ve learned my lesson, keeping a secret that big will only cause problems in the end. No, Dan would be the first to find out. If he didn’t answer my call, I’d leave him a voice mail, or I’d send him a text. I was so busy thinking about how I would tell Dan, I barely heard the timer go off. I slowly stood up and walked into the bathroom, I felt like things were moving in slow motion. I held my breath as I picked up the small stick ( Don’t panic, Don’t Panic ). I stared down at the test in my hand, there it was.. Positive.

I was frozen in place, I couldn’t cry, I couldn’t even move. When I snapped out of it, I walked into the lounge and sighed as I sat down on the sofa. I really wasn’t sure what to do, so the first thing I did was pick up my phone and dialed Dan. Surprise, no answer ( But I really wasn’t surprised ). Instead of sticking to what I said earlier, I became a coward again. I didn’t want to tell him over the phone, it didn’t seem right. I glanced at the clock, it wasn’t very late, but I couldn’t keep my mouth shut. I quickly dialed Alice, ” Hello? ” she yawned. I smiled, ” Where you asleep Alice? ” I asked. She chuckled ” Well you try to have 2 babies, they don’t ever wanna sleep at the same time. Lyle sleeps through the night like us, but Liam wants to sleep during the day. I don’t get a lot of sleep Elle “, I sighed ” Well, I might be going through a situation like that in… 9 months “. There was a long silence and then a loudly girly squeal, ” So it was positive, have you called Dan? ” she questioned. ” Yeah, it was positive and Yes I called Dan, but he didn’t answer ” I sighed, ” Maybe he’s just busy ” she stated. I rolled my eyes, ” I doubt it, he just doesn’t wanna talk to me ” I sighed. She then sighed, ” Well, don’t fret Elle, Everything will be fine ” she stated. ” Yeah, I know. But please don’t tell anyone, I’d like Dan to find out before the rest of our friends ” I sighed, she chuckled ” Okay, I won’t tell Alec then. But, what if Dan doesn’t ever wanna talk to you “. I frowned, ” Way to make me feel worse! ” I exclaimed. ” Sorry Ellie, I was just wondering ” she whispered, I sighed ” It’s fine, but I still wanna get a second opinion, from a doctor… “. She sighed ” I understand “, she then went on to give me the name of her doctor. ” Well, I’ll let you go, I wanna make an appointment ” I stated, ” Alright, well if you need to talk about… that, just give me a call ” I could tell she was smiling. After hanging up the phone, I sat back on the sofa and sighed. I still was unsure about what I was gonna do, it almost didn’t feel real. I had a lump in my throat and I really wanted to cry, like a lot. Was I really ready to raise a child? What would people think?

I sat around for a few hours, until I finally just broke down. It be different if I was in a relationship with this guy, but this was from a one night stand. It made things harder, but things always get better….Right? I felt my phone vibrate next to me, I quickly glanced at it, it was a text message from Scottie. It read, - Hey, did you know that Dan and Phil are back in California? : Scottie -. I rolled my eyes and quickly replied, - No! How’d you figure it out? -. It didn’t take him very long to reply, - Dan randomly texted me a photo of him and Phil at a party, but I don’t think he meant to send it to me. It took me a few minutes to figure out where he was, but then he sent me a text, telling me to make sure you’re okay, because he’s in California : Scottie -. I let out a deep sigh, - He was probably drunk, I tried to call him earlier and didn’t get an answer - I replied. - Haha, So, Are you okay? : Scottie - he replied, I laughed to myself. - Yes, I’m fine Scottie! - I quickly replied, - Okay Gurl, Text me if you need to Laterzzz! : Scottie -. I rolled my eyes, - Okay Bye - I sighed pressing send.

" Why the fuck is Dan texting Scottie, Dan doesn’t even like Scottie. Why wouldn’t he call or text me, like what’s going on here? " I exclaimed a little louder that I expected, Bernie just sat there giving me this look of confusion. I chuckled and patted him on the head, I had a hard road ahead of me, whether Dan was going to be there for me or not. I was still unsure on whether or not I was going to keep the baby, ( Abortion was out of the question, no way! ) but I don’t think I could give the baby up for adoption either. If I kept the baby, at least I knew I’d have my friends by my side.

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Hey, I just want to say, I’m Sorry. I just felt this needed to happen, but don’t worry, more Drama to Come! I also want to say, I don’t 100% know things about Pregnancy, so if I get some things wrong, I’m terribly sorry again. (: I Hope you’re still Enjoying and Thank You so Much for Reading <3