black lace - mattia polibio

fear of losing love

tw: panic attacks

- mattia

" hey mattia , where is avery?" jessica ask running down the steps.

" she left an hour ago with amara, i guess they are touring italy together." i answer. i was all sweaty because i just came from the gym. my brain was all over the place trying to figure out a lot of things.

" isnt she like axels sister? something about that girl is off." jessica screws up her face. " anyways when she gets back tell her come to my room."

she walks out the front door leaving me alon infront the stairs. i shake my head and walk straight to the shower.

i took a cold one to wash off all of my thoughts and clear my mind. i lather my skin with body wash and rinse it off.

i throw on a black shirt and some sweats. i turn the bathroom light off and head to the second floor to alejandro's room. i need someone to talk to.

" come in" someone answers through the door. i walk in and see him laying on his bed. " hey what's up?"

" can i talk to you about something?" i scratch the back of my head and sit on the chair infromt of his desk. " where is avery?" he questions.

" she went out with amara to tour italy." i answer. his eyes widen and he sits up. i guess everyone has the same suspicion as me. " you dont trust her either."

" yeah , something seems so weird about her. wait are they alone?" alejandro jumps.

" im not even sure. thats the problem, im afraid she might do something to her. everyone in the house doesn't seem to trust her." 

" if avery feels right hanging with her , thats her decision. but i suggest you keep her away especially from your relationship." alejandro suggest.

" keep close eye on axel for me too , he seems so obsessed with avery and i dont have time to deal with him because of my gift for avery." i sigh.

- avery

" so , howd you like the tour?" amara smiles at me.

" i enjoyed it very much , thank you so much." i thank her.

todah has been really fun honestly. amara wasn't lying when she said italy was beautiful. me and amara have some what in common and i liked talking to her.

" i glad you did. so how are you and mattia?" she ask playing with the straw of her drink.

i feel very weird talking about my relationship with her.

" um were are great , i love him and he loves me. i trust him with my life so have no choice but to." i simply answer not going to anymore details. her facial expressions change and she shifts in her seat.

" he is really good at hiding stuff isnt he?" she mumbles under her breath. i choke on my drink slightly being caught off by her.

i look around the restaurant and its only us in here. i did forget she said this was a private restaurant.

( play song)

" excuse me what?" i gulped.

" i said he is really good at hiding stuff," she says becoming more hostile. " dont play dumb , you know what this is."

" im sorry but what are you trying to say?"  i asked but being more afraid.

" your so faithful man isnt as faithful as you think. and your just dumb to believe the act he is putting on." she fumed.