black lace - mattia polibio

soon

" you think your so funny?" avery leans against the balcony . "trust me , i know im funny." mattia chuckles getting up from the chair.

he walked over and stood behind avery as she stared off into the distance. 

" your so beautiful," mattia sighs slightly moving her hair out of her face. " and your so handsome." avery smiles. 

" do you have to leave?"mattia asked but he knew the answer already. " you will see me soon, i promise." 

- mattia

holy shit , why did it have to end? ever since the funeral , avery has been appearing in my dreams. most of them are about her and we always meet up in the balcony, its like our safe space. 

i was hot and sweaty so i got up to take a cold shower. 

walking downstairs , i a few distant voices in the kitchen. i walk down the stairs slowly only to see mar and alejandro talking. 

" oh hey man, just came to check up on you." mar daps me up. " how you holding up?"

" i get worse everyday , i keep having these dreams about her and we are always on the balcony. its like she is here but not at the same time." i explain. " maybe i'm tripping out."

" i have been getting those as well. everytime i ask her when will we meet again she say like very soon , its kinda creepy." alejandro sighs. 

i cold breeze flashes pass me causing me to shiver. it feels like someone just ran past me or a window is open. 

" did you open any windows?" i ask ale with an eyebrow. " no , i didn't even eat yet." he answers. 

" that's crazy , i'm sorry for your lost. call me if you need anything , but i have to head out to pick up some packages." mar says dapping me up one last time before exiting out of the house.  

i stare at the picture from the funeral on the wall. i wish i could see that smile in real life again, i wish she could just be with me one last time. 

no matter how hard i fought to keep her with me , someone always finds a way to take her back. i hate that everyone didn't want to leave her alone when she was mine. she was mine and only mine and we both knew that. it took us so long to get where we were , now ill never know what the future of us would be like.

i love her and i always will , she will stay in my heart forever. i dont think i will be able to replace her. she was the only good thing for me and now its all gone. 

im going to rain hell upon xavier. he has gone to far , striping people i love of their life. 

" mattia , you need to go out man. staying in the house all day isnt going to bring her back." alejandro turns to me. 

" i dont know, i just cant. ale it just feels wrong." i state. " nothing feels the same anymore , everything feels so dead."

" i understand that this is hard for you , yeah its hard for me to. but remember you still have a mafia to run with or without avery." alejandro sighs. 

" how am i supposed to work when every move i make she comes on my mind. its like she is telling me something but she isn't because she isn't even here." i scratch my forehead. 

" mattia listen to me , im still in disbelief that any of this is real. you need to go out and clear your head. go to the dock and sign the papers for the shipment and when you come back you can do whatever you want." alejandro demands. " remember your our capo , serve and protect us."

i mean he is right. as much as i don't even want to go anywhere other than my bed , i have to do something. i have to send a moving truck to her apartment to get her belongings. 

" okay i will , just because i want to." i say sarcastically. 

" good ,oh and don't forget to pick up the rest of her stuff at the hospital tmr. i don't know why they didn't give them to you when we were first there." ale shrugs getting up from his chair. 

- jessica

" mark , something isnt sitting right with me on this whole avery thing." i blurt out. 

mark was sitting on my bed comforting me because i couldn't stop crying. i miss her so much but nothing is making sense.

i keep seeing her in my dreams and she talks to me like she is still here. she kept on throwing hints to as if she was still alive , or is that just want i want to believe. 

" and why would you say that?" mark questioned. " we did see her body you know , it was a whole open casket funeral." 

he is right maybe im tripping. " did they really tell us how she died? the barely showed her body , mainly her face and a bit of her chest." i say. 

" they said it was to much blood loss or something , they didn't really go into full details." mark shrugs. 

" we should check on mattia , he probably hasn't even left his room all morning." i suggest and stand up from the bed. 

" yeah , i miss her. she was the best little sister i ever had." mark sighs getting up as well. '

" we all miss her , especially camila and mattia."