Caught Up : (Young) Sirius Black x FemReader

The Astronomy Tower II

(T/W: I imply suicide once in this. I also mention emotional abuse. I hope that its not too triggering. If it is, lmk and I won't writing anything like that again. Also, this chapter is a bit longer than usual. But enjoy!)

I don't say anything. If he has something to say then he can say it, but I'm tired of his bullshit. As I'm still sitting, I look up at the starts. It was quite, and easy....until he decides to actually speak up.

"Y/N?" He says.
"Hm." Is how I reply.
"Can we talk..now?" He asks me.

I want to say no, but I can't escape this one. Unless I jump off the tower, in which this case, I'm really thinking about it. Would be a lot better than having to talk to him.

"I'll take that as a yes." Is how he responds to my silence.
"You have 5 minutes. Then I'm leaving." I strictly tell him. I'm still facing the stars though, I haven't looked at him once yet.
"Okay, I just want to say that I'm deeply sorry for how I've been acting. It's not like me to act like this, I don't know what has come over me these past few weeks. Things at home have been crazy and I feel like the world is closing in on me and I feel that if I lose anyone else in my life then I'm going t-to just lose it. Especially if that person is you. I know we aren't that close but, Y/N, I miss talking with you and if you'll have me, I really do want to be friends again...not that we were friends to begin with..." he says, copying my words at the end.

Silence grew over us for a minute.

"That was the worst apology speech I've ever hear...I rate that a 2/10." I say, copying his words, while clapping of course. Though this was in a more jokingly way. I accept his apology, of course.
I hear him laugh a little, "Okay I get it, I was a jerk. I am truly sorry. Will you forgive me?" He ends with.

"You are a jerk." I say, still joking a little bit. Though he was a jerk.
"I know, and I promise I'll make it up to you." He says.
"Why have been acting...the way you been acting?" I say, trying to find the right words for the question.

Silence grew over us for another moment. I turn my head to look at him. His head was down, his hair was in his face, he looked distressed and distracted. I would be lying if I said the moonlight didn't bring out his handsome features though.

"Sirius." I start with. He looks at me, I motion him to sit next to me. He comes over and sits close, "I forgive you. If you forgive me." I say.
"Of course I do, love." He says with a small smile.

We are both sitting down now, my legs are dangling over the tower, Sirius is leaning against the wall, and it was silent.

"So are we good?" Sirius breaks the silence.
"We're good." I say.

As more silence came over us, I began to think. What did Sirius mean when he said 'things at home are crazy'?! Is he okay?! Should I ask him?! I was starting to overthink and worry. I decided that I should ask him, I mean, we are friends now so...what could happen...?

"Hey, Sirius? Can I ask you a personal question?" I begin.
"Yes, of course. What is it?" He asks kindly.
"What did you mean 'things at home are crazy'?" I ask cautiously.

He doesn't say anything at first. I start to worry if bad things are napping to him..physically.

Sirius' POV:
Im not going to lie, I was a scared to answer this question. I couldn't lie to her of course, I mean, we just made up. But, I haven't told anyone my personal problems besides James. To be fair, no one really asked, no one really cared to ask. Maybe I should tell her, I trust her enough to to know that she won't tell anyone. I'll just be bland and simple.

"Oh you know, just that my brother hates me for leaving him, and my parents are emotionally abusive and I can't control my own life because my parents constantly tell me what to do and what not to do. They also hate me because I got sorted in Gryffindor and not Slytherin like the rest of my family. They told me that I ruined the family name because of that. They also tell me that I'm a disgrace to the family. But that's pretty much it. Oh, and I think my brother is a follower of 'You Know Who'. So, yeah." Wait. Did I just say what I think I said. Stupid idiot, you literally told her your depressing life story!! Just be bland and simple my arse. I mentally scold myself.