The Woman in the Letter

PART 12

"You are my breath, my heart beat. I can't live without you"

This word was one of the sentences he often wrote in his letters.

"For me, the world is in your eyes. Wherever you look, my home is there. In front of your eyes ... "

During lunch, we met with Susan, an Italian co-worker, to discuss the interior design of the restaurant, which will be built in the city center. There were only 3 days left until the delivery date of the initial phase of the project. Nevertheless, she spoke the main part of the discussion, and all I did was listen and shake my head. The various words and sentences in the letters came to my mind, and they prevented me from directing my attention to anything. The video, the words Paul has written or said to me have been circulating in my brain. Susan knew something was wrong with me. But she did not ask me about it.

I deleted the e-mails. But the letters remained. If I burned them, it seemed to me that I would burn and destroy Paul's love for me. It seemed like a good way to relax psychologically. But it was impossible to forget him completely. Paul had returned. This time he was stronger. Because he didn't send the video because he loved me. On the contrary, he shot it to hurt me. I just wanted him to open a new page for himself after sending the video. I did not know what happened. In fact, I was no longer interested in whether Paul was good or not. All I wanted was for him to disappear and do not exist in my life. Maybe five or ten years later I would have some good news about him. Like an old acquaintance. I would remember our past for a few seconds and then move on with my life. That's what I wanted. To become two strangers in the shortest possible time. But it seemed an impossible dream to become true.