𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐏𝐒𝐄 (𝐋.𝐍)

7. 𝐓𝐚𝐥𝐤

𝐓𝐖: 𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬

6 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡 2021

After almost three weeks in therapy Elena's therapist suggested something insane.

Invite Lando to her next session. Although the suggestion was shocking she'd somewhat expected it but was just hoping it wouldn't happen.

In the previous 5 sessions they'd covered the initial surface level issue, Lando and their fling, and the doctor even suggested writing a letter style journal to express the feelings she couldn't express verbally.

In the second week they'd dug deeper and talked about her dad, her mother even joining in virtually. That session had appeared to be the breakthrough and after a recovery session that morning her therapist said the next part of the process was to confront that pain.
In this case she had to listen to Lando's side of the story because quite frankly not knowing why he did it was killing her.

But she'd also received good news from her therapist, she could return to social media.
The social media ban had been put in place after Elena admitted in her first session that social media played a large role in her masking her unhappiness with a smile. She felt that she wasn't allowed to have a bad day because she was always trying to make sure her followers were having a good day by giving them content that would make them smile.

She'd decided that she'd make her big return through a twitch stream Q&A. But she still had to figure out how to contact Lando and ask him to join her at her session on Tuesday.

8:35 𝐩𝐦

Elena sat comfortably at her desk with her computer set up for the stream, her camera was still off as she waited for more viewers to join. She played with the string of her hoodie as she mumbled the lyrics to the music playing in the background.
She was nervous, she was about to bare her whole soul to the internet and was rightfully scared of the reaction she would receive.
After three minutes of keeping her viewers waiting she finally switched on her camera and began chatting to them. She eventually switched on her camera and greeted her chat, conversing with them about the new F1 season and her music. Finally mustering up the courage she opened her gallery to look at the screenshot of the questions people had sent in on Instagram and twitter.

"Alright so I'm answering questions now. These were mostly the most asked questions and a few are just random ones that I liked. So the first one is from insta, Where have you been?"
"Well I've been here and there, but mostly I've been at home with the girls. OK the second one says :How do you know the Euphoria cast?"
"Well I actually wrote a few songs for their soundtrack. So basically Zendaya watched some of my videos where I was singing original songs and she wanted to use one of them for the show, hence why I took a couple videos down. But when I met up with her Labyrinth was there and suggested that we collab for other songs on the soundtrack. " Those that had followed the girl for years knew of her musical talent and had witnessed her make a name for herself on YouTube, garnering respect and attention from a few big names in the industry.
" From there on I met the rest of the cast and yea...we became friends."

"Alright next question: why did you take a break?"
"This is hard to answer because it's such a big thing. But basically I've been going to therapy and my therapist suggested a social media break so I could focus on my programme without distractions and stress. And it really helped because I've never really taken time to heal from the things going on in my life, I just continue as normal because I know you guys expect me to release content each week and I never want to disappoint you guys so I always push my feelings to the side and focus on delivering good content. For example in December last year I experienced something heartbreaking and I swept it to the side because I had other things to focus on and in the process I only hurt myself more. But just to be clear I don't blame you guys at all, I know that I expect to much of myself and I lack the ability to put myself and my well being above others. I'm working on it though so we'll see what happens next. "
From there on a new discussion about mental health began between the Spaniard and her chat. She felt lighter and thankful that she had such kind fans who were understanding and patient.