Back To You [Completed] ✔

12. That's exactly what I've been doing all these years

"He found a letter" I blurted out.
"He found a letter, I wrote for you...A long time ago...when my feelings for you were so heightened and a piece of paper was the only thing I could share it with. I wrote how the moment you stood up for me in the prom, I fell in love with you again. For a moment I thought we could be together again but then ...next moment I realized that when we are on the verge of going our separate ways, when our being together has only caused us pain then it would be wise if I just...just let go of my love for you."

 
I exhaled a shivering breath. For the first time, I was speaking out loud what I had been feeling for so long time and I felt like there was a weight on my chest that was slightly lifting. And I guess tears in my eyes were the way that weight reduced.
I looked down and decided to continue because this might be the only chance to say it all out.

 
"I wrote how I thought that all my feelings would fade away but even after days, weeks, months, I couldn't let you go of my mind. How even after being with Finn, I compared his love to yours ...at every step. And I knew how stupid this all sounds, dwelling over a high school lover who is not even around I secretly wished for you to come back into my life." 
  "I wrote how if you walked into my life again someday, I'd not care who I'm with, I'll run back to you. I would never let you go again and tell you each and every day for the rest of my life how much I missed you, how much I... I love you." 
Before I could gather a breath from my long confession and think what Ed has to say a hand slipped around my neck, moving my chin upwards and lips pressed into mine.

What just happened? Did it even happen or I just fainted while blabbering and I'm dreaming right now?

He pulled away and I could now see what was happening. His green eyes became darker as his pupils dilated. My chest rose and fell as his eyes danced all over my face cupped in his hands.

" It's not stupid" he whispered " I know how it all feels like...cause that's  exactly what I've been doing all these years"

My tears finally dropped down my cheeks as he said those words. That's exactly what I've been doing all these years. I cannot believe that the situation that might've ended in me being embarrassed just turned into my favorite daydream. I was not stupid to love him all these years. Amidst all these heart-stirring thoughts and emotions I found only one way to reply to him.

I brushed my lips into his.