Back To You [Completed] ✔

22. My way is not back to him

He was right. He was not supposed to be waiting for me to love him enough. He has a girl who loves him. It doesn't matter if she wears a mask as long as that makes him happy. And that's the end of this chapter. Maybe destiny crossed our paths just to prove my way is not back to him. I am fine with it. I am trying to be fine with it. But not having him after having him so close is eating me.

I dragged myself out of the house, to go out. Do anything...shopping, watch a movie, just roam around...anything to distract me.

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The universe is surely playing a sick game with me. When I have accepted separation then why is it still throwing Ed in my way, along with his double-faced lover? Out of all of the stores in New York, why do they have to choose THIS store THIS day?

I lurked them behind the compartment hanging dresses as they stepped into the store, hands in hands. These must be happy days for them after the storm that I caused.
I should leave.

I should've left but a tiny silly part of me stayed, to see. Like a child looks at the moon. Ester seemed happier and radiant for a girl whose boyfriend cheated on her.....it was like nothing ever happened.

I waited for them to reach the end section of the store's floor so that I could sneak out of there without being seen. After a few minutes when they were not visible around I found my chance and paced towards the door.

Walking downstairs I checked behind me for them and bumped into someone.
Why does the one I was walking away from specifically keep coming in my path again and again?

"Well... well... well...look who just doesn't give up," said Ester with a grin.

I rolled my eyes. "I just happened to be here. Nothing else." I took a step down but she blocked the way with her hands on the banister. "Go back to shopping with your boyfriend Ester. And get out of my way" I said with an irritated look.

"You're backing off Hazel...impressive. I guess Ed did put you in your place once and for all."

She knows Ed confronted me. Of course, she does. She made it happen.

"It was so easy to boil up your jealousy. Just a few words and you blabbered everything. And did the very thing Ed asked you not to."

She is here again to gloat.

Avoid her.

"I accept it. I was intimidated by you. I thought you would wrap him around your finger. But you know Ed. Ed is so inclined towards his commitment...one of many things that I love about him, I used it. Thanks to you now I get to have him forever."

"I pity you, Ester. You know he will never look at you the way he looks at me so you used his mere feelings of commitment for you. You are just settling in for the least offered to you." I could see those words triggered her. "Let me go now." Her grip tightened around the banister in agony.

"He just slept with you once and that too when I was not around." She gritted her teeth. "Has he shown any interest since I came back? NO. He just shrugged you away like filth."

She is doing it again. Don't do anything you'll regret later Hazel.

"Get out of my way" I gripped my palms around her wrist. But she didn't flinch.

"He just called you a mistake. A one-time thing and you are the one walking around like his puppet. Like a desperate loser." Ignore her. "I pity you."

I jerked her hands away to walk out but her legs stumbled and the next thing I knew was a cry, a yell, and Ester lying on the bottom of the stairs.

I didn't do it.

What the hell did I do?
I paced downstairs but a guy ran towards her beside me.

Ed looked at her in panic, trying to lift her.... understand what happened.
My breath took a pause when I saw blood on her forehead. I reached downstairs baffled about what to do but Ed appeared in front of me. Panic and anger ran in his nerves as he looked at me. I had no words to say.
What should I say? I opened my mouth but he pointed his finger at me.

"Stay away" he yelled.