my cousins band ↠ c.h

Chapter 16.

Ugh, College. I think the messiest part about college is choosing where to attend, and the most anxious thing about college is worrying if you'll even recieve an acceptance letter. My worst fear has always been being hyped over a college and not getting accepted. I need to open up my choices. My dream college has always been Princeton University, ever since i saw The Cinderella Story movie with Hilary Duff. I always dreamt of studying Music or Law there. But, if i want to make my dream come true i have to cough up fifty-five thousand dollars. And we all know i dont have that type of money. I log on to my laptop and start to look at different colleges, 'Harvard', i say to myself, 'Wouldn't it be so amazing to tell my kids that i attended Harvard University?', i tell myself, i keep looking and write down a few more colleges so that i remember to look up more about them.

'Scarlett, whats this?', Calum walks over and looks at my notepad, 'Princeton, Harvard, Pomona, Yale, Stanford', Calum reads down the list until he realises what the words scribbled on the notepad mean, 'No, Scarlett. You aren't seriously still thinking of going to America for college, are you?', he looks at me, what does he mean still thinking of? i never stopped thinking of it. 'Of course i am Calum, i never stopped thinking of it', 'But what about all this?', he waves his hands around reffering to the live im living with him now, 'What do you mean 'What about all of this', ive had this dream since i was a little girl, i want to make something of myself Calum. I want to know how it feels to have achieved one of my biggest goals in life', 'But, what am i suppose to do? I cant just leave the band', he says, 'And i dont expect you too Calum! I didnt say you had to tag along', i fire back, 'But-what-i', Calum runs his fingers through his hair, 'I wanted you to be here with me every step of the way, discovering all new places with me and coming to the shows', he says, by this point hes seated himself on the couch, 'I want to Calum, i really do. But i cant give up my normal life because my boyfriend and cousin are in a band. Im going to be 18 in 3 months and i need to start taking my future seriously, you have your future Calum, you're doing what you love, i want to have the same feeling. I want a future, you've had your band for a while and ive already expierienced what its like to be the girlfriend of a celebrity, after today im scared Calum, i'm scared that my future will get cut short so i can live in the shadows of a superstar, i love you Calum but i need college, just like you need your band. I want to be able to come home and tell my kids', 'Our kids', Calum corrects me, 'Our kids that i grew up living the dream going from one country to the next with you and the boys, but i also want m-our kids to look up to me and proud of me for what i've accomplished', i finally finish, 'Fuck', Calum says obviously stressed, 'We're in such a mess. I love you Scarlett, so much. But you've put me in the most difficult situation', he says, 'I know Cal, but we will make it work. Just dont worry now, i still have 4 months until i have to leave', i try comfort him but it makes things worse, 'Wait, so you're leaving straight after the tour?', he says, shit. I knew this would happen, 'Yeah, well i have to send my application in 4 months but they only take 3 weeks to process and send out so i will know by the end of January or the start of February if im going or not', i reply, Calum doesnt say anything and i have a feeling that he cant. If i was in his situation i would have no words either. He replies by simply getting up and walking into the bedroom. I hate that ive made him feel like this, like he needs to choose over his band or me, but he doesnt. He can have both, because i love him to much to let him go.

I decide to follow him into the room, hes standing in the bathroom shirtless now, both hands on either side of the sink and his head down, i walk over and wrap my arms around him, laying my head on his back, 'I'm sorry, it will all work out', i tell him, he turns around and faces me, if i lift my face a few inches higher my lips will be touching his, 'I love you Scarlett', he says, his breathing brushing gently over my lips, he had just brushed his teeth because a strong minty scent filled the air between us, he put his arms on my hips waiting for me to respond, 'I love you too, Calum', i say tilting my head down slowly so that he cant see the tears starting in my eyes, he plants a light kiss on my forehead then pulls be close to him, he rests his chin on top of my head and continues to hug me. 'I'm going to Luke's soon because we are going for dinner tonight apparently', he says, 'Where?', i ask, 'Some place called black light or something like that', he replies, 'Okay, well ill get ready soon', i say, 'Yeah im just gonna chuch a shirt on and go to Luke's, i love you', he says, 'Okay, have fun, i love you to', i call just as he closes the door.

I'm so glad i met Calum, his family is so nice, he loves me, and hes trying to work together on this whole college thing with me. He truly is a gem, and im glad hes in my life.

I decide to call Adam before i get ready just to make sure the dinner is still happening, 'Hello?', the deep voice says from the other side, 'Hey Adam, are we still going out tonight?', 'Yes we are, we're going to a restaurant called Black Light, we'll leave in about 20 minutes', he replies, 'Okay thanks bye', i hang up.

I wish i had brang something nice thats warm aswell, the only nice warm things i bought are a few long sleeved rompers, and lets face it, they arent even warm. I decide im going to just wear a romper and put my black coat over it, that will make me warm. I decide to wear the black romper that i wore on Calum and i's first date, i put on the same old makeup, concealer, bb cream, powder. And leave my hair out, the good thing about London is that there is no bad weather so my hair doesnt go all frizzy. I chuck on my black and white converse and look at the time, im ready 7 minutes early, thats a record, i laugh to myself.

I start walking towards Luke's room and just as i'm about to knock i hear Calum's voice, its muffled so i put my ear to the door. I shouldnt be snooping but i want to make sure the conversation is clean before i walk in.
'Yeah she has this giant list of colleges she wants to go to', hes talking about me, 'All of them seem to good to be true, i dont think she'll get accepted to any let alone be able to chuck up that amount of money for a stupid college', my heart shatters at his words and i try and hold back my tears, why isnt Luke stopping him from talking about me? 'Its pointless, she doesnt need college. She wont be able to get a job now anyway, now that their is paps everywhere we go, she'll cave the minunte she gets to college, and even if she does get in the college is bound to kick her out after a few weeks due to the paparazzi that will be sneaking onto the campus', i cant listen to anymore, i run straight for the elevator and repeatedly press the button until it opens, i run straight in and press in the Lobby button, i cant cry until im out of this damned hotel and away from the cameras outside, the elevator ride seems to be endless and i can feel the tears forming.

Finally i reach the lobby, i run towards the door and hear someone call for me followed my heavy running along the tiled floor, it's Harry. 'Scarlett you cant go out there alone!', he yells through the echoey lobby, i open the door and immideately feel one of Harrys arms snake around my body and the other one is holding his coat in place over my head, i let the tears fall, i dont care anymore, i dont care for the paparazzi at all, every bit of care and trust i had just got destroyed by Calum's words. 'Where do you want to go?', Harry asks me through his thick coat, 'Far away from here', i reply. I hear a car door open and Harry lifting coat off me and placing it around me so i can get in the car, he follows after me and looks at the driver, 'Should we wait for the other lot?', the driver asks, 'No, send a different car for them. Take us to Hyde Park', he says.
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btw guys im in no way at all trying to make Cal or Hazza look bad in this story, im just trying to make it into a good drama filled story!! 1D and 5sos are both BAEEESSSS 😍😍😍😍😍😍