Dearest Bleu,
I don't know what to feel, I just feel so empty. I, I dreamed of you, me, us, our past us? I'm not really sure but it seems like it.
I had, I had a miscarriage, it was quite a whirlwind of emotions, such a stressful way to start a day. We lost our baby, their baby, but it just feels as if it was mine, ours. It just felt so real, for awhile there, I felt like I was a mother, I knew her pain. Do awhile I thought I was bearing a child, I felt like I was a mother.
I just find myself after waking up a bit saddened, no not a bit, I can barely process everything, I was crying.
I'm just a bit stressed lately, I figured I just need a break, and you are indeed my peace, all I could ask for to be at my most calm and serene being.
Thank you for always being there for me, even if you're not here, I can still feel your presence. Thank you for being my support system, needed or not, you're always by my side.
xoxo
Raine
