My Dearest Bleu,
How are you doing? I hope you're doing good, making most of life still not taking things for granted. If we'd meet sooner, it might make quite a tormoil so I assume God really know when's the right time. Let's meet somewhere life changing, somewhere at sometime we're both ready, in His divine timing.
I'll stop writing for awhile, Hal. I need to find my innerself first, follow my heart and let things unfold naturally as they were written in stone. As said in Isaiah 60:22, "When the time is right, the Lord will make it happen."
It's already about a year, when I met you, when I first saw you in my dreams. You are at the end of the aisle, watching me lovingly, teary-eyed as I walk towards you ready to say my vows and be with you til death do us part.
I remember being the center of attention, only looking at you, looking into you and your precious soul. The first time I laid eyes on your deep blue eyes, I felt comfort of a home I've been longing for, my forever resting home.
When you came to my life, everything changed. I'll always be thankful that that night God allowed us to meet even in our dreams but at that moment not for a second I felt it was a dream. It all felt real, I have doubted your existence a couple of times but that's because I'm afraid it'll only hurt me, waiting, for nothing. And you're not nothing! You're my everything, I'll wait all my lifetimes just as you promise me you'll find me.
It might took forever and even days felt an infinite torture but you are worth it, us, we are meant for each other. So if reincarnation is real, I'd spent all of it searching for my half.
I'd go through the ends of the world.
You might also be wondering if I'm willing to wait why am I stopping now, I'm not, I'll search for my half of heart, so I could find your half. I need to find my part not until that, it'll be difficult for us.
I'll always look on color blue and hear your name echo; I'll always stare at the ceiling and see your face; I'll always find myself wondering about your day between breathes; I'll always stare into the moon just like how you stared at me; I'll always wonder how the wind felt like your embrace; I'll always be your tulip, destiny, your Raine and you'll always be my Mikhail.
So next time you look up to the sky, look for the moon call my name as I call yours knowing we both look up to the same sky and someday God will allow us to meet to carry a home of forever on Earth. Until that day, wait for me patiently, keep me in your heart engraved and pray that that day is yet to come. I'm working on myself, so you won't have to.
Find me soon. Let's meet soon. See you soon.
Soon at the moment...
xoxo
Raine
