Jisung POV - the past related to now
Why is it... so cold?
Why is everything around me so cold?
My body felt as if it was frozen in that moment. Looking at the darkness that was found in front of me.
It was at midnight, a summer midnight, but I didn't feel cold because of the weather. The cause was of the emptiness inside of me.
A soft streetlight behind me shone into the distance, the exact same way how I was searching for something in the cold atmosphere. Only I didn't shine.
It amused me how something so little yet so dark would make me feel at peace.
The streetlight was just enough for me to be able to see my pastel pink sneakers, the sneakers I loved and hated so much at the same time.
Droplets of water from underneath me splattered against my bare ankles, leaving it cold,
Like me.
I wish I would have just jumped right then, but I didn't, I couldn't.
I hated the cold feeling but I hated the fact that I would disappoint everyone else more.
So I just continued, spending my days trying to get rid of the coldness inside me by trying to bring it outside. Turning numbness into physical pain which worked for a while, until I couldn't take it anymore.
Until the feeling suffocated me too much. Why would those days happen over and over again and why would I give myself over to it every time.
Those days were farewell the worst, or maybe the best, it would save myself from misery for a while. But it would make others pity me more.
I hated the fact that all I could do was just stare, stare at the boring bedroom ceiling and my boring bedroom wall.
Why would that day sneak up to me every now and then so often.
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