Blue Flame (Completed)

Chapter 47

Chapter 47

I couldn't answer.

Tama ba? Would it have been better if his mom died instead of my parents? And he just said that Tita Glacier didn't know it was her friends, if she knew, she would have died instead. And what would have happened to her family? She will leave four children, their family would have been in grief.

Kumpara sa akin na nag-iisang anak, tama bang ang mga magulang ko nalang ang namatay? Kung si Tita Glacier ang namatay noong gabing iyon, malamang ay kasama ko ang mga magulang ko ngayon, hindi ko siguro makikilala ang mga Montgomery at ang mga Altamirano. We can meet but.. I will probably just become a nobody in their lives.

Life is really unpredictable. The lives of people are tangled. One thing leads to another, one decision can make a big change. Imagine how our lives would have been if it was the other way around. Was it the plan of the above? Was it the best for all of us? For me?

Hindi ko alam, hindi ko na alam. Gulong-gulo na ang isip ko. I'm hurt and I admit that maybe I really want someone to blame but I know it isn't right. Biktima lang si Tita Glacier, it was her choice that got her but who can really blame her? She wanted to live for her family, sinong may karapatang magalit sa dahilan na iyon?

Maybe I'm just really hurting, maybe I'm just really trying to rebel because I was hurt. Maybe I'm just really trying to make things hard for them. Dahil sa totoo lang, alam kong dapat pa nga akong magpasalamat sa kanila. The Montgomerys took me in and treated me like a part of their family. The Altamiranos took care of the justice my parents deserve. Hindi lang para kay Tita Glacier ang ginawa nilang paghuli kay Arthur, he was the reason of my parents' death as well. He's the root cause of all of these and what did I do? I acted like a child, hindi ko man lang inisip ang mga ginawa nila para sa akin.

"I'm sorry.." Umatras ako. "Can you.. can you give me more time? Can you.. can you just leave me alone? Ice nakikiusap ako, hayaan mo muna ako.."

"But--"

"Please? Please.." I cried.

"And if I leave now, will your decision change? Kung aalis ako ngayon at babalik bukas, sasama kana ba?" He really looks desperate.

May pakiramdam akong pipilitin niya pa rin ang sariling maghintay dito buong gabi, kahit pa basang-basa na siya ng ulan. And I don't want that to happen. Maaring nagmamatigas ako pero hindi ko siya kayang tiisin kung ganito, madudurog ako.

Humakbang siya palapit. The intensity in his eyes is scary. If he can only use force to drag me out of this place I'm sure he would have done it. Kung hindi niya lang pinahahalagahan ang nararamdaman ko, kung hindi niya lang ako pilit na iniintindi, I'm sure he would have done something already.

His love for me is so amazing. How can a person handle a problem like this? His mother was accused as a criminal, ilang beses ko na iyong narinig, even Heather blames her mom. But he, how could he take it calmly, how can he not be offended by the accusation of the people around them? Pano niya tahimik na tinanggap ang lahat ng bintang habang tahimik din na pinapatunayan ang totoo? He's so strong and brave.

And he managed to love me when he knows I will be the one who'll hate them the most, even when he knows it will be hard for the both of us, he still pursued me. He didn't back down and chose an easy way. He chose me even when I'm so hard to love, even when our situation is hard, even when it's so hard for him.

"Promise me you'll come back to me and I'll leave now.."

Umiling ako at umatras. Pero sumunod siya at muling humakbang palapit.

"I won't leave unless you promise me.."

"Ice please.."

"I will only go crazy if I leave now without holding onto anything. Hindi na baleng manatili rito at mabasa sa ulan, hindi na baleng magkasakit ako, ang gusto ko, mabantayan kita."