If It Means A Lot To You... (Frerard)

(22.) I Used To Totally Be In Love With Him, Oops

(((Sorry but more feely feels, the feels r almost over..... 4 now vibes)))

I woke up with Frank's face in my back, his arms around my waist. My stirring disturbed his peaceful slumber and he shifted his body.

Frank's head lifted to looked at me. "Morning Gerard, baby," I turned around and gave him a kiss, gently running my hands on his jaw.

I wanted to feel him there, to know he really was there and that he wasn't going to be leaving. I needed the smoothness of his skin against my fingers to know he was with me always.

"You know," I stated conversationally, pulling away to look at him. "I kind of used to be in love with Trenton."

He raised his eyebrow at me. I felt relief that he wasn't uncomfortable talking about this with me. "When was this?"

"Back in middle school," I sighed, leaning my head against Frank's elbow. "It was back before you moved here."

"Really?" Frank looked at me curiously. "So, are you saying that everything just changed one I came here?"

I nodded. "Yeah, I mean, I guess I still did kind of have feelings for him then, but I never acted or did anything about it.

"Although, in, like, tenth grade, he kissed me at a party," I sighed as I admitted this to my boyfriend. Frank was the only one I had ever told about that incident. "Trenton was drunk, of course, so he didn't remember it, and I never brought it up."

I bit my lip and searched Frank's eyes for an answer, a reaction to what I was telling him. "Oh my God, Gee," He pulled me closer than we already were into a hug, squeezing my shoulders. "That really sucks, now, then."

I didn't say anything, I just nodded against his back and let my tears flow freely, soaking his shirt. "Frankie?" I asked him when I'd cried all my tears out.

"Yes, Gee?" He looked at me, his big hazel eyes gazed at me.

"Will you come with me to Trenton's funeral when it goes on?" I sniffed and he wiped away my tears with his finger.

"Of course, baby," Frank whispered gently to me, pressing his lips onto my forehead. "Anything for you."

{This is very short, cuz it's kind of a filler oops.

The title of this chapter is way to cheery imo but oh well

I love you, the Trenton feely feels will be over soon, I promise :3}

~Carry On~

Ari Thomas<3