Love in Darkness

Chapter 11: Missing home

Selena is in the garden early in the morning. She is laying on a bench, thinking. Everything feels new to her and she does not know how to take it all in. Last night did not help either, she barely falls asleep. She got married suddenly and had to share a room with a man she just met. Recalling last night's situation can make Selena feel uneasy again.

After dinner, Magnus and Selena walked together until they reached their room. Magnus then took a towel and his pajamas while Selena remained standing, unable to move because of discomfort. She did not know what to do. Before going to the shower, Magnus stopped in front of her, "I will sleep on the couch, and you take the bed." He then continues his way towards the bathroom.

As long as Magnus entered the bathroom, Selena rushes to the cabinet and looks for a pair of pajamas as well but all she saw was nightgowns. "Oh my goodness. I can't wear this. No! There is got to be one pair here." After rummaging, Selena successfully found a pink silky pajama. Her face was enlightened. The sound of the shower was gone so it means Magnus is finished.

Selena went to the bathroom hurriedly as soon as Magnus stepped outside. She purposely took a shower longer so that by the time she finished, Magnus has fallen asleep. Selena talked to herself, "I have been here long enough, I am sure he is already asleep.". She got dressed and opened the door without any noise. She even tiptoed her way to the bed. She then checked the couch to see if her husband is asleep. Selena carefully laid herself on the bed when suddenly, "You know, it is bad for your health to see too long in the shower.".

Selena's eyes widened. She gulped and cleared her throat. "I liked it so much I lost track of time. It was my first time in the shower." Magnus just nodded, "Yeah. Right.". Selena continued to defend herself, "It is. I lost track of time. I did not purposely prolong my stay at the shower."

"Selena." Magnus called her name suddenly. Selena stopped talking, "What?"

"Relax, okay?" Magnus then moved his body into a back sleeping position. "I am not going to touch you or whatever you are worried about."

Selena laid in the bed and moved her body into a side sleeping position. "I am sorry but it is not that. I am just not used to this. It feels awkward." She did not hear any response so she looks at Magnus and saw that he was already sleeping. Selena sighs and turned herself into the side again and tried to sleep.

But her body did not let her sleep until 4 in the morning. So Selena decided to go to the garden for fresh air, she thought it would help to calm her nerves. Selena sits on a bench and then lays again, and she would sit again. She notices the string lights, it made the garden bright and magical.

Magical.

Selena suddenly remembers Eon. She smiles bitterly and recalls what happened in the forbidden forest. "He was also a stranger to me but it is different. I felt familiar around him. It was like I had known him already for a long time." She tries to recollects Eon's face and the magical place where they met.

Selena looks around the garden. "It almost looked like this garden. So many unique plants and beautiful flowers. It has also a tree but nothing compares to the big oak tree in the forest. Instead of string lights, there were thousands of living fireflies." She smiles at her memory and misses the feeling of being in such a place.

Then Selena remembers the day of the wedding when she saw Eon. She clearly saw the pain and betrayal in his eyes. She wanted to rush to him and run away with him but she was unable to do it. Selena's eyes are starting to tear up. She put her hand to her left chest as she felt pain in her heart. "I was unable to tell him what I feel about him so I hope the wind will take my message to him." She hopes it would work if magic really is real. She whispers into the air, "I'm sorry for leaving. It was my way to save from pain. But I wanted you to know that I loved you."