Love in Darkness

Chapter 39: Being carefree

While Selena is in class, her mind is somewhere else. She got called by professors for not listening. After her morning classes, she decides to not attend her afternoon ones and just stay at the mini park. She lays on the seat, leaving her lunch at the table. She mutters to herself while caressing her stomach, "I am sorry, baby. Mommy is not hungry right now. I will eat for you tonight.". She sighs and covers her eyes with her arm. She is about to fall asleep when someone stands in front of her. Selena uncovers her eyes and looks at the person. It's Erik. Her eyes widen and she instantly gets up. "I told you to not come near me again."

Erik positions his hands widely in front of him while telling Selena, "Calm down, I am not going to hurt you. I just want to talk to you for a minute.". Selena looks at him, examining him. She calms down when she sees that Erik is different from the last time. "What do you want?". Erik sighs deeply, "I want to apologize. I did not mean you any harm. I promise. I just... I was... I was drunk and... hallucinating. I am really sorry, Selena. I did not want to cause you trouble. I thought you were her.".

Selena could see the sadness in his eyes. She can tell that he is really regretful. She did not respond to Erik. Erik continues to talk, "Anyway, I really sorry. You must have been scared. It will not happen again.". Selena still did not respond. After a moment of silence, seeing that Selena has no plans of replying, Erik decides to leave. "Well, that is it. I am sorry I took a lot of time from you. I will leave now.". He turns around to leave. When is about to walk, Selena speaks a sentence, "Do not let it consume you.". Erik turns around again to see Selena. Selena is looking at him with a serious face. He smiles at her, nods, and then leaves.

Selena watches Erik as he disappears from sight. She sits and mutters to herself, "What does he mean by he thought I was her?". She sighs and laughs, "How funny is it that I also thought you were the person I knew and once loved.". Then unconsciously looks at the table where her lunch is, she feels the sensation of eating it so she starts having lunch. She looks at her stomach and caresses it, "Look, baby. Mommy is eating now. Are you happy?". She smiles, "Because I feel happy. I do not why. After encountering Erik now, I feel okay.". Selena sighs and concludes, "Maybe it is the hormones. Hmmm... Yes, that is it. The hormones.". She then continues to eat happily. "Mmm... This is delicious. I am glad I ate this. Nana would get upset if she sees that I did not eat this.".

After lunch, Selena still did not feel like attending her afternoon classes so she decides to stay at the school library. The medical school's library is a cool place and even has couches so it would be really comfortable for Selena. She is walking around the bookshelves, choosing a book to read. She comes across a bookshelf with the label of nonfiction section. She chooses from a lot of books and selects The Notebook. Selena sits on one of the couches and starts reading.

Selena is focusing on her book that she even did not notice that Erik sits on the couch beside her. Erik is also not aware that it is Selena sitting on the couch next to him. He looks at the book at the person next to him is reading. He thought to himself, "Seriously?". He then starts reading. Hours passed, Selena's eyes are filled with tears. She mutters to herself, "Why would you not fight for her? She is willing to give up everything for you.". She starts to sneeze because of crying. She gets her handkerchief and wipes her eyes and nose. She sighs, calming herself down when someone talks. "Could you cry in the bathroom? This is a library.". She puts down her book and sees that it was Erik who is beside her.

Erik is also focusing on his book when he hears light sneezes. He thought, "Is she crying?". He tries to ignore it but realizes he cannot take it. "Seriously? This is a library, a place for peace and quiet.", he mutters to himself. He sighs and starts to speak with the lady beside him, "Could you cry in the bathroom? This is a library.". The lady puts down the book. Erik's eyes widen slightly. It is Selena.