Love in Darkness

Chapter 45: Consistent bad changes

"Come on, just one bite.".

Selena lost her patient and shoves the pancake, "I SAID I'M NOT HUNGRY!.". As she shoves the fork, she also has shoved the food table making it fall to the floor. The pancakes are scattered and the orange juice is spilled.". Miss Luna is shocked by what happened and looks straight at Selena's eyes. "Alright. I will not force you. I will just prepare another tray and you could just eat it whenever you feel hungry.". Selena did not respond and just stares at the wall.

Miss Luna decides to clean up the mess herself. She is about to kneel on the floor when Magnus storms inside the room. "Stand up, Nana. You do not need to do that. Let her clean that up.". Miss Luna holds her grandson's arm, stopping him from talking. "Do not try to stop me, Nana. I will not let her treat you this way.". Just then Selena looks at Magnus and speaks, "What?". Magnus looks at his wife with anger and disappointment.

"You heard me. I will not let you treat Nana like this. Every night I would be outside that door," while pointing at the bedroom door. "listening to you and Nana. Nana would have sleepless nights because she wants to look after you and wants to be awake when you would wake up due to your nightmares. She even pampers you more than me and I did not question that because you lost your baby. That would be the end of the world of a mother. You are mourning and I could not imagine what you felt. But Nana is also mourning and so do I. You can blame me, Selena, even punish me for losing him. I admitted that it was my fault. BUT NO ONE! No one has the right to treat MY grandmother like that! Not even you.". Magnus looks straight into Selena's eyes while speaking and so does Selena. Selena's eyes begin to tear up.

Miss Luna then interferes. She holds Magnus' arm while pulling him away from the bed. "That is enough, Magnus. You do not have to do this, I am okay and it is my fault, I forced her to eat even if she does not want to.". Magnus cannot believe what his grandmother has said. Instead of arguing, he sighs and leaves the room. Miss Luna sighs and looks at Selena. "Do not worry, I will talk to him. I will ask a maid to bring you another food tray, okay?". She smiles and goes for the door. Before closing the door, Miss Luna glances at Selena and she could see her eyes full of sadness and regret. She feels sad watching Selena like that. She finally closes the door and goes to the kitchen.

Selena is left alone in the bedroom, crying. She hugs herself and one hand is on her chest. She feels pain as she recalls what Magnus had said earlier. "Every night I would be outside that door, listening to you and Nana. Nana would have sleepless nights because she wants to look after you and wants to be awake when you would wake up due to your nightmares. She even pampers you more than me and I did not question that because you lost your baby. That would be the end of the world of a mother. You are mourning and I could not imagine what you felt. But Nana is also mourning and so do I. You can blame me, Selena, even punish me for losing him. I admitted that it was my fault. You can blame me, Selena, even punish me. BUT NO ONE! No one has the right to treat MY grandmother like that! Not even you.".

Selena's cries are getting louder because of the pain so she covers her mouth to suppress the sound. She is almost out of breath but she manages to mutter, "I am so sorry, Nana. I'm so sorry.". She also recalls the look in Miss Luna's eyes as she shoves the fork and food table. Shock is visible and Selena regrets it. She cannot explain what she had felt at that moment while being stubborn. All she could do is apologize to Miss Luna in her mind. Selena is still crying when someone knocks on the door. She immediately wipes her tears and lays on the bed. She covers herself and says, "Come in.", in a deep, serious tone. The maid enters the room and puts the food tray on the bedside table. She then leaves.

Without even looking at the food, Selena could tell that it is her favorite meal by the smell. She uncovers herself and looks at the food tray. She recalls the day when Miss Luna first cook her favorite. They were laughing while cooking. A smile starts to form on Selena's lips. She sits properly in the bed. She takes the food tray and places it in front of her. Then she starts eating. While chewing, tears are building up in Selena's eyes. She takes another spoonful of her meal and this time, Selena is crying. Tears are flowing down her eyes as she continues to eat. Little did she know that Miss Luna is outside the door, peeking through the gap. Miss Luna smiles seeing Selena eating and even finishes everything that was on the plate. She then quietly and slowly closes the door so that Selena would not notice. Miss Luna goes downstairs and into the kitchen.