The Summer Warmth

Fifty-Four

The Fear.

CHAPTER 54

I woke up in a dark room, only a white light above my head, supporting the light of the room. My hands were already with my biggest enemy, the cable ties and that gave me my answer as to who was keeping me hostage and the way I was being dragged here without my compliance.

I looked down to see that my clothes have been changed which makes me more frustrated of being so helpless and the only way I could let out it was by crying. Slowly the tiny drops start sliding from their source to each direction, covering all traces of my hits and bruises that are filling my face by the pain of it. I try to free myself in pain of not wanting to just sit here and catch my breath till I feel no more. I try to move but aching pain in my body constricts my movements immediately.

I try to keep my blurry eyes at the back and look down to see myself covered in my own blood. The white thin material covering my intimate part is now turned into the color I merely detest. I try to move again to feel what all parts of my body have been damaged, again.

I promised myself never again but here I am again, Bloody and Bruised.

I let out a high scream when I hear the crackling sound of my bone which I think is coming from my kneecap. My screams turn to sob into a toe-curling crying. I feel the anger, the hurt, the pain, the pity for myself, and the disappointment of letting all of this happen to me again. The dreadful feeling in my stomach travels to my chest which feels constricted than it already is. When I realize the action, my eyes widen in shock,

I can't have a panic attack at this state, No.

Think of something Valarie, you can't let yourself feel hurt again. Constriction of air. Something good to take your mind off, something beautiful-. Rise in the heartbeat rate. The blue clean sea, the cool wind on a hot day, the cherry blossom leaves falling on the head. Head spinning. My family, Maa's beautiful hair, Dad's loving hugs, Bubba's annoying kisses. Huff's coming out of the mouth with sweat collecting on my forehead. My friends, Ivy's motherly love, Charlott's sassy comments, Aiden's full-blown smile when he sees me, Lucas's caressing my head and his flirty comments and Ethan's cuddling wants and making me laugh all the time. Eyes rolling at the back of the mind. And..., and the person who gives me love without even batting his eyes, without even thinking what if he one day is out of it for himself,

Jade.

And with that, I slip into unconsciousness with his thoughts swirling in my mind.

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I wake up with someone's arms tightly wrapped around me, mumbling sweet things in my ear, making the breath of the person tickle my ear. I with much force finally open my eyes and before looking up I inhale the cologne which always makes my inside go mushy, even now, always have since I inhaled it while I was trapped between the wall and his body.