A Frigid Wedlock(completed)✔

chapter 7

"This this bloody freaking me out. His every changed steps, every damn take on our relationship is making me even more claustrophobic to his domain.
I am getting irritated, feverish, rash and actually so not into me.  Whatever is happening with all these things. Whatever change it is, I don't want it. I do not want any change in my life. All these changes has ruined me for myself. "

These thoughts keep running in Sana's mind throughout the day. Can't get rid of them all. She does not understand what to do, where to go, whom to talk to.Well she doesn't want to talk it out either. Especially to him! The root cause of her situation. This fear of hers, metathesiophobia . Basically its a fear of change. A lot of people around the world have it and suffer with it. And they are absolutely unware of its presence in their mind. They live with it, they live a miserable life with it and die succumbing it into their heart, coz the world is so ignorant n harsh about such miniscule yet grandeur morbidness. Yesss! A morbidity.... An ailment coz it never let u do things with ease n agility you will feel discomfort, mayhem and all the other deformities that other normal people lacks. Because the dictum says-"change is life" ,"only change is permanent " . So how an individual suffering with a fear of change can live a peaceful n normal life. Matter of discussion!.... Obviously people dealing with such sparse are not at all coward or weak. Only thing they need is comfort , amenity, solace, empathy and a profound heart to heart conversation.

On the other hand Siddharth has reached at this point of irresoluteness in his life. He is in complete dilemma. From where he does not understand whether he should move forward or takes his steps backward, coz if he commit the prior, then in retaliation Sana takes four steps backward.....she is that much affected with his action nowadays. and there is no question of going back. Already there was a lot of mileage and remoteness between them. And taking steps back at this point means loosing her forever n disintegrating their relationship too . So it would be better to take a step forward. How long did Sana take her steps back . At some point or the other she had to stop, for him and then everything would be fine.
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Many days passed in this dilemma of both. Sidharth extend his step forward and Sana pulls her back.But this time Siddharth was determined ,determined to put this best foot forward. He will not stop and neither will turn away from her. He genuinely wanted to give their relationship a chance. A fair chance , he wanted her to be happy n jubilient the way she used to be..... A happy jolly, vivacious n chirpy Sana. He wants that demeanor, that particular shiner of hers to reside in her all over again. Though the task is tough but now he is up for it.....
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" Arav beta utho pairo se, lag jayegi " Sana said nonchalantly to arav who was
Sitting on his mother's feet, his small feeble and tiny arms draped around under the back of her knees and swinging. Sana who was sitting on the bed gave him a light swing from time to time but ultimately was tired.

"naaaiiiii.... Mazaa aayaaa mumma, aur jhullao" he mutthered n giggled holding her legs tightly.

" acha! Maza ara hai... badmash ho gya hai bachcha mera bohot. Yaha aao mumma ke paas" she made the gibberish accent exactly like him. Pulling him up holding him from his underarms.

"nooo! Mumma aeeeee" he shouted dramatically throwimg his head back in resistance. But she took him to her lap and peppered his face with long and mushy kisses. Which made him laugh and giggle hysterically.

Arav is the only sinshine and hope left in Sana's life with whom she laughs n giggle a little. Due to which she does not feel that her life is completely empty and sore. However, the huge void in her life can not be filled by arav alone .But she tries to live with whatever she have with the help of Arav.

Soon Siddharth comes in the room and is fascinated seeing such a beautiful scene in front of him. He wants the time to stop , this smile that is playing on Sana's face, it should never go away, never ever fade away. Don't know with each passing day his wish n determination to mend there brawled relationship is getting stronger. This gives him a glimmer of hope that perhaps sana will return to her initial persona! Maybe he will be successful in getting n giving her happiness back.