Chapter 35

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Natasha's POV:

Today is the day. The day that Y/N leaves for god knows how long, I just can't believe that day is here already. I move to turn on my side yawning slightly as I watch Y/N whilst she sleeps. I smile softly as her bed head covers some of her face, her mouth falling slightly open as she stirs a little. I can never get over the fact that she looks so peaceful but, I know deep down she's so unsettled.

I gently stroke her cheek with my index finger and I gently chew my lip tearing up slightly. God, I'm gonna miss falling asleep next to her at night and then waking up next to her in the morning. I sit up properly wiping my eyes and I sniffle gently getting out of bed walking towards the kitchen.

"Fuck."

I use my hands to lean against the counter looking down at the floor letting my tears finally fall. I chew my lip sliding down the side onto the kitchen floor putting my head in my hands sobbing. I'm broken away from my thoughts by footsteps but I make no attempt to get up off of the floor.

"Mom?"

I lift my head up at the sound of Wanda's voice and I smile sadly at her wiping my eyes sniffling.

"Hey you, it's early, why are you up?"

I watch as she sits down next to me resting her head on my shoulder and I rest my head on hers.

"I couldn't sleep either, I know you're worried about mom, she's gonna be okay though. We need to trust her judgement on this."

I laugh slightly.

"A few days ago, she said that she didn't even want to go anymore. She said that she wanted to stay here with me, with you."

I glance down at her watching her frown and I sigh softly kissing the top of her head.

"I'm sorry, I just, I don't know what I can do to help her."

"I know mom, none of this is your fault though."

"What if it is? What if she would have just been better where she was, without me getting involved? What if it's me that's made everything wor-"

"Mom, stop it. Do you hear yourself right now? Do you really think that it was best for you to leave her there? With those people? I can tell you right now, you saved her. As much as mom doesn't like it, her thoughts are pretty loud when she's not trying to cover them from me."

I look at her and frown.

"What do you mean? What have you heard?"

Wanda picks at her nails, it's definitely a habit that she's picked up from Y/N.

"I don't think it's my place to tell you mom, but, all I can say is that when we came to rescue you? You saw what happened to Y/N? It was worse than that, there were many different ways they hurt her. She's safer here, with us."

I frown tearing up at her words and I rub my face sniffling. I'm honestly being so selfish, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

"I-I didn't even realise, I've been so stuck in my own world being selfish about me not wanting her to leave, about how I'm going to be when she leaves, that I haven't even tried helping her."

Wanda looks at me and sighs gently hugging me tightly and I feel myself tearing up. I rest my head on her shoulder taking a shaky breath as I continue sniffling.

"Mom, just go back to bed okay? Stay with her as long as you can, she needs you."

I nod against her shoulder standing up with her and I grab my coffee from the counter only to have it immediately grabbed by Wanda and poured down the sink.

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