Say you love me, please (Yeonbin fic)

<Chapter Twenty Seven: Overdue words>

Well, yeonjun wasn't exactly delighted when he saw his lover once he stepped out of taehyun's bedroom. It was already 10 am and much to his surprise, his body felt fine enough likely from the drugs his friend has given him, but even so the drowsiness was left lingering inside his head. Nothing much of a hassle he can't handle though.

Immovably, he just dwelled at the doorstep,-debating whether he should initiate conversation causally or just gave the other boy a silent treatment. Before he could even make his decision, the other boy has already stood up from the living couch and strode up to where he was idly standing.

"Hey..junni, let's go get some breakfast?"

Soobin offhandedly took the older's unharmed hand inside his bigger ones and offered him a faint smile, eyes too clear, unlike his dull ones.

Right, also a smile that almost deceived yeonjun in believing that their relation has been perfectly fine.

The fine he used to perceive..

Not knowing how to even respond anymore, the pink haired boy nodded halfheartedly at the taller and his focus was gathered too much on the warmth that spilled between their palms rather than the tightness occurring inside his chest.

As his lover pulled him along to whatever, yeonjun just wordlessly followed behind, not even remembering to say thanks or a goodbye to his silvered hair friend, who was at the same time nowhere to be found.

The two boys sat at their favorite cozy burger place, at the same window side that they usually sat at. The lovers still hasn't make a discourse with each other aside from ordering their food and yeonjun, thinking soobin would brush the problem aside just the way he normally did,  didn't bother to begin the topic either.

But they need to talk soon though..

After some ticking quietness, yeonjun noticed the way soobin was staring at his wrist across from the table, and it seemed a bit bothering. 

Is he worried? or just weird out about it?

Still, yeonjun shrugged it off, just pretended not to notice the behavior as he tried to give attention towards the busy street inexpressively.

"Hey, junni...I am sorry" 

His lover eventually broke from the stillness.

It was not an unusual apology, yeonjun already heard it way too many times, not even worth acknowledging. 

Even so, he still shifted his eyes onto his lover.

Soobin sounded genuine, the way his eyes beamed with guilt and sorrow yet yeonjun wouldn't know- this has been going in a loop and his mind, already numb from the impact of the shallow words.

He didn't respond, just eyed him, unblinking and listless.

However, instead of stopping there, his lover suddenly leaned forward and held his hand, the one that had been marked with band-aids, and using his thumb, he stroked onto the knuckles  delicately.

Yeonjun sighed in relish as he melted instantly into the gesture. 

He has always been weak for these, the things that soobin does and soobin himself. 

But at this moment, yeonjun needed to be strong.

he's always the stronger one right??

"yeonjun I- I am sorry for confusing you all the time..I didn't know I was hurting you..I never wanted to hurt you junni.."