Say you love me, please (Yeonbin fic)

<Chapter One: 2 Soon>

Silence

The deafening silence

Or maybe it's just the loneliness that was delivered together with every heavy thud of his heart

What's the point of hearing your own heart beats when it lost the sole purpose of their rhythm?

The moderately warm weather wasn't enough to keep the tall boy from trembling slightly.

It wasn't that all quiet though. The crunchiness of the autumn leaves can be heard every time Soobin stepped on them - in fact they are the only noises that accompanied him, as he walked to his beloved lover.

Just that instead of getting greeted by a normal heart warming place- visited frequently for dates, it was a graveyard.

It have been 7 months, 7 months since the death of his lover, Choi Beomgyu.

It had happened so suddenly.

The situation had hit him like a storm, too bluntly, too off based - like the gross salty taste you could get from a cup of coffee instead of the anticipated touch of caffeine.

Fate indeed was cruel.

One moment he had everything he have ever wanted and the next moment, he knew he had lost that everything.

Beomgyu, the said boy was his lover of 2 years.

He was Soobin's first love, first crush, and in early junior year of college, he pumped up all the mighty courage to asked that boy out and immediately, Beomgyu had agreed to date him.

They were happily together since.. until the ugly fate ruined it.

Soobin, of course, took it very hard - refused to accept the reality and refused to mourn over his death.

However, as strong as he wanted to be, he couldn't.

The boy finally broke down after two months....two months of realizing , he will never get to feel the warmth of his lover, see the pretty smile, hear the naggings whenever soobin pulled all nighters for exams and fails to eat healthy meals.

Also farewell to the cuddles, the small, soft hands that perfectly fits into his.

Normally, in this time of the year, Soobin would be happily spending his time going around the town with his lover, doing cafe hopping, trying out new desserts, going arcades or maybe just at his apartment cuddling under the shelter of blankets. They would be spending their youth in all the many best ways, as long as they are together.

He was not supposed to be in a grave yard.

They were not supposed to be ill-fated

"How are you gyu? "

Of course the reply never came.

the silence was sickening

"It's been 7 months since u left me...."

"I missed you a lot, love"

"I hope you are doing great wherever you are and don't worry about me too okay? I am eating and sleeping healthy just like you've always pestered me " he let out a bitter chuckle- just loud enough for himself.

They were indeed lies of course..

It was surely impossible for Soobin to bring himself to eat healthy and at the same time, insomnia chased him pettily every night.

It wasn't all that yet though.

Whenever it's night time, the tall boy would break down in despair- and even if he could fell asleep from exhaustion, still miserably he would wake up too early in the dawn from nightmares.

The same nightmares about his lover getting hit by a truck.

Sadly, there was nothing to cope.

the blues were unavoidable

It was Friday and he was immersed in his soccer game until it was 5pm- quite an important final game before the arrivals of midterm exams. Both team performed a very heated game but nonetheless, Soobin's team has won.

As the result, a team party was held and Soobin was needed to attend- pretty much the duty of a team captain.

It was the sole case and due to it, he wasn't able to fetch Beomgyu from his part time job that evening.

The biggest mistake, the dreadful regret.

Soobin was planning to buy a bouquet of roses for his dear lover after the party- a dimpled smile adorned on his face.

It was when his phone started ringing loudly, that the tall boy was disturbed from his thoughts.

Taehyun, he was sobbing hysterically and panic- talking to the point where his words came out jumbled.

"Calm down, tae. What's going on??" the tall boy asked- practically shouting to suppress the background noises roaring from the loud party music.

"Beomgyu, he's.. he's dead soobin"

That's it.

Just one sentence.

Soobin desperately wished the words were misheard, or perhaps taehyun schemed together with his lover to pull an evil prank on him??

But no- the younger boy has heartlessly repeated the ruthless words.

"He's dead"

Despite the blaring noises of the party, everything was muted in an instant.

The perfect world crashed down

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The comfortless place was getting a bit chilly as the sun casted away, marking the sky darker in shades of blue and grey.

The tall boy was finally pacing slowly back to his apartment while getting consumed by the same old merciless thoughts.

However, Soobin's legs were forced to halt right away when a foreign warmth wrapped onto his icy hand.

His wrist was held by someone

Startled by the sudden contact of a warm hand, Soobin furrowed his brows and turned around in confusion.

What he saw was a complete stranger.

A pretty boy with pink pastel hair and a pair of soft, monolid eyes- seemed too alluring within the dullness of the surrounding.

Still, the tall, blue haired boy has managed to raise an eyebrow- taunting an explanation for the stranger's action.

As though he was flustered, in an instant, the pretty boy dropped his hold from the taller's wrist.

Despite the shy demeanor, with a light blush and a coy smile contouring his face, the shorter boy started-

" Would you like to go on a date with me?"