Blue Moon

36-High

Warnings for this chapter: Drug Use

Texting Ash and Dez, I see if they want to go to a club. 

I just want to take my mind off of it, I can't handle thinking about it right now. 

What it means, how I feel. 

I don't want to feel anything. 

They both text back saying they are down to go to a club later. 

I don't even pay that much attention to the fact Ash agreed as I walk into the bathroom to shower. 

The water runs down my body and I try to hold back the thoughts are are trying to spill out. 

It's already nine o'clock at night so soon I won't have to focus on it. 

I just need to hold on for a while longer. 

Once I am out of the shower I begin doing my makeup. 

As I apply some blush I hear the front door open and close. 

"Ava?" Dez calls out from the living room. 

"In the bathroom." I answer back putting my blush away and grabbing my eyeliner. 

"Ash said she'll pick us up soon. I'm going to start getting ready."

Then I hear her bedroom door open and close. 

My make up is done and I quickly curl the ends of my hair before going into my room to change. 

I choose a short gold dress and black heels. 

Slipping them on I remind myself that tonight will be fun. 

I'll be out dancing with my friends. 

Everything's ok.

Once Ash gets here, Dez and I head out of the apartment. 

The three of us end up at the club I first ever went to. 

That's where I met River. 

For a moment I hesitate going inside. 

I think about calling him and telling him what happened. 

He would listen and I would cry. 

I would cry. 

I don't want to cry. 

That thought is what makes me step into the club. 

The lights are flashing, and the music is loud. 

I squeeze through the hoards of bodies, heading towards the bar. 

"Hey Ava slow down." Dez says from somewhere behind me.

Getting to the bar I show the bartender my stamp and ordering myself a shot. 

In this moment I am glad I have a fake ID.

When Dez and Ash appear beside me I have already downed three shots. 

Ash picks up the glass and smells it. 

"Are you drinking?" She asks, her brows furrowing. 

I nod, "Yep." I say taking the next shot the bartender offers. 

Before I can down it Ash takes it out of my hand. 

"Hey." I say trying to reach for it. 

Ash raises it above her head.