BILLION DOLLAR SMILE || Taejin ☑️

Insecurities

Seokjin and Taehyung sat together, hand in hand, and watched a Stageplay of Romeo & Juliet. While Seokjin was totally dissolved into the play, Taehyung was hurting emotionally. From the time they met Farina in the Cafe an hour ago, Taehyung's heart was burning with various unknown emotions...or rather the emotions which were always burried deep inside of him.

'Farina was in love with him....his life would have been normal & peaceful if he would have married Farina....Am I selfish?......I have always been selfish ....did I change Seokjin for my own selfish needs?.....he was never totally into guys before I came into his life......I sure am selfish...' Tae's eyes became teary.

He looked around and found themselves surrounded by a river of heterosexual couples. He smiled softly when he saw a pregnant lady snuggling into her husband's shoulder lovingly, while watching the play.

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The play ended and they had their dinner at their hotel's dining space. Seokjin observed that Taehyung had been very quiet for a while now. "What happened, Voo? Babe, is everything ok?" Seokjin couldn't stop himself from asking him. ".....no, it's nothing....I just want to buy one more bottle of Vodka for myself," Tae looked away, and replied softly. "Hmm....ok, but babe, try not to get too drunk, ok?" Seokjin couldn't say no to his Voo but he could tell that Tae was hiding something from him.
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[In their Hotel Room]

Seokjin was in the shower. Taehyung was in his silky deep blue night gown, standing by the glass window, watching the stunning night view of Rome from up there while drinking Vodka directly from the bottle.

Seokjin came out of the bathroom in just a towel wrapped around his waist, his shower-gel scent spreaded all over the hotel room and beyond. He hugged his Voo from behind and placed a hot kiss on his cheek. Taehyung was already a bit drunk. He moaned lightly and turned to look at Seokjin.

The two of them were now standing face to face. Seokjin's hands around Taehyung waist and Taehyung's around Seokjin's neck. Holding the bottle of Vodka in his left hand near Seokjin's right shoulder. Seokjin could now clearly see tears in Tae's eyes. He took the bottle of Vodka from Tae's hand and kept it on the desk. He ran his crooked fingers over Tae's soft cheeks to wipe out the tears that were running down from his beloved's big eyes.

"Babe, you have been upset since this afternoon. What's the matter? Please tell me!" Seokjin got worried.

"......Seokjin....are you really happy with me?.....are you really satisfied with me?.....," Tae asked him softly. Seokjin wasn't expecting such questions all of a sudden. "Voo...what kind of question is that?..ofcourse I am...," Seokjin replied, looking directly into his Voo's eyes.

"Seokjin....I really feel guilty....for changing you.....your life would have been even better if you would have got married to Farina....she really loved you....and she still does....I could tell....you two even had your parents' will.......Seokjin!...you really deserve to be happy...to also become a father....I will never be able to give you children..naturally......I feel like I had been selfish all this time....Seokjin!...there's still time....you don't have to worry about me....The memories that I could make with you this far, is enough to keep me happy forever....you gave me your love, that's more than enough for me. You are contented with me at present....but things might change after some years....because of me, you won't ever be able to get loved by your parents ......Seokjin! Your parents come first. I am secondary....and it's not like my feelings for you will change if you get married to Farina....I would be the happiest person......I would love to play with your children....you are Worldwide Handsome, Farina is extremely beautiful...your children are surely going to be the cutest ones....Seokjin!....I have always been naive....this is the practical world that we are talking about....everything is not a fairytale like I always tend to think....it's the decision of lifetime....Seokjin! You are the CEO of the Moon Enterprises. Shouldn't you think about your profit in your personal life too? If the two of us get engaged, it would just be a selfish decision in my favour only. I am gay. But no matter how much I try, I can never give you all the things that a woman can. I was greedy and silly. I always wished to get married to a young-handsome-richman- Then We met & soon I fell in love with you. You were always into women, before I came into your life. You were normal. I ruined you. Had you not met me, you would have been happily married to Farina, two years ago...your parents too would have been happy.....Seokjin! Like I said...there's still time....we can still cancel our engagement.....I don't want to act selfishly anymore....I love you with all my heart and soul, so I just want to see you getting all the things that you deserve to get in your life...," Tae managed to speak in between endless tears that were rolling down from his eyes, cupping Seokjin's cheeks with his hands. 

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