One look, I skip a breath
One lost breath, my hands shake.
One word, I forget my thoughts
Without my thoughts, I can't communicate.
One bite, I forget my worries
No more worries, No more pain.
One hug, I remember what I've lost
A broken switch flicked on like chaos.
I own my feelings,
But the world guides them.
My mind is truly unraveling at the hem.
Driven by anxiety and depression
Need affection but scared of interaction
So I keep aiming for superficial satisfaction
Maybe one day true feelings will take action.
Fake smiles and materialistic personalities,
They attract me like no other mentality,
Because to me this is reality.
Smiling with white teeth so bright
You are blinded by their light
And distracted so you can not see past them
Eyes melancholy, that's what's truly inside them.
Why can't I speak without making my mind weak
Always suffering just to make it another week
My stresses are over and I can't get a wink of sleep
When I talk to others I feel like a freak
This frustration irks me like no other
Feels like a heavy weight but it's really just a feather
Sometimes I wish I was like my mother
Talkative, the life of the party, normal, the go-getter
I've never developed these traits from her
Maybe they would help me become a better person
Or maybe this is all just a cruel lesson
That'll be over once I've cleaned up my mess and
I'll be able to rest
And no longer stress or loathe
About nothing,
Everything,
And My whole being.
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Somber, Melancholy, and Bittersweet (A Collection of Poems)
Poesia"And I am sad. And I am mad. The maddest you can be, But with love as deep as the sea, As warm as the summer sky, Caressing like the moon in the night." --Written in moments of strong emotion
