I Have A Sugar Daddy

Epilogue

Stefanne Veronica Alcontin's POV

Nasa apartment kami ngayon ni Isabelle dahil may sasabihin daw siyang plano para sa paparating na birthday ni Tom bukas. August 4. Si Song muna ang nagbabantay kay Tom doon sa hospital tutal ay natutulog pa naman si Tom.

“Maupo ka,” sabi ni Isabelle. Inilibot ko naman ang mata ko sa loob at namangha lang ako dahil kahit maliit lamang ay napakalinis. May kinuha siya sa isang cabinet at ibinigay niya sa akin iyon.

Isang sobre.

“Basahin mo muna yan, bago tayo magsimula. Lalabas muna ako saglit. Bibili lang ako ng makakain natin.” sabi niya. Hinintay ko munang makalabas si Isabelle bago ko napagdesisyonan na basahin ang sulat.

It's from Tom.

Napabuntong-hinga ako at hinanda na ang sarili sa posibleng mangyari. Unang basa ko palang sa unang salita, parang umirong na ang laway ko.

Dear love,
           How much I can hurt because of you? Anything about you is hurting me. Even my dreams are painful but I still want you. They say falling inlove is full happiness but when I fell inlove with you, I felt pain. I felt sadness. Everytime you smile, my heart broke because I know one day, that smile will vanish. I don't think I can let you go but fate wants us to separate. I don't want to disappear. I'm so scared. If I rest, then you must go forward and shine. If only I can stop time, I already did so I can stay by your side at your worst. If I want to be with you, just stay by my side until the end of my life. When I close my eyes, I want you there by my side. You're my home, my everything.
             I’m sorry, love. I don‘t want to end our story like this but I need to do this. I love you so much that I could sacrifice myself for you. Because of you, I endure the pain. I want to make you have everything you wanted so I wanted to live longer for you. I have some unfinish business to do. In you, I found my rest, my home and my medicine. Though there are times that I wanted to disappear from this world but when I think of you, I want to live longer. The days we faced together, the moment I realize that I should start to love living in this world longer. I want to live for you. I want to be with you until my last.
            They say, time is a healing but as the days went by, I suffer a lot of pain. Everytime I’m with you, I’m so happy. When I’m with you, I feel at ease. But I know one day, those beautiful memories will turn into memories that will probably gives you pain. It’s so painful that I’m used to it. I’m numb right now.
            But If I have more time, I think can ease the pain because of you but day by day, the time is running, watching you loving me made me hurt the most. I want you to forget about me and start a new life with someone who derserves you.
            Right from the start, I know that we were destined to each other but fate and time  stopped us from being together. They’re our greatest enemy. I can‘t stop them, love. I’m sorry.

Loving,
Tom

Nagsiunahan sa pagtulo ang luha ko at niyakap ko ang ko ang sulat. Dumating si Isabelle at napabuntonghinga siya tsaka ay niyakap ako.

“I wanted to donate my heart pero ayaw niya. Tanggap na niya ang kapalaran niya.” she sadly said. Hindi ako makapagsalita dahil nasasaktan ako. Pagkatapos kong basahin ang sulat ay parang gusto kong idonate nalang din ang puso ko para mabuhay siya pero ayaw na ayaw niya ng ganun.

“Napakaswerte mo naman. Ikaw ang unang babae na inibig niya at ikaw rin ang huli” she said. Hinigpitan ko ang yakap sa kaniya dahil hindi ko na kaya ang nararamdaman ko napakasakit na.

“Be with him until his last breath, yan ang tanging hiling niya.

Naging masaya naman ang celebration namin nang sumapit ang araw ng kaniyang kaarawan. Tinitigan ko siya sa tuwing tumingin siya sa ibang direksyon. Pagkatapos kong basahin ang letter niya, parang gusto kong pagalitan yung tadhana at oras dahil ang daya nila.