3rd day in Thailand. JayB's concert is today. Holding on to my ticket. I checked my final outfit which is a white oversized sweatshirt and black cargo pants.. and I'm all good. I was booking my taxi ride to the concert venue when a big black van stopped in front of me and then somebody grabbed my hand.
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It was like a blur.
"You going to JayB's concert right??? Let's go I'm the surprise guest". It happend so fast. All I know now is that I'm inside a van and he is still HOLDING my hands!! I'm freaking out this is not just him holding my hands.. His hands are intertwined to mine.
All through out the ride he is just holding my hand call me old school but my heart is racing now. We got to the venue. No erase that we got to the backstage is the correct term all of a sudden the concert staff is giving me an ID pass and putting wrist band tags..
"Mica, are you okay??? This is what you do right?"
"YEAH!! I'm ju-just little shocked.."
He just smiled at me while he grabs my hand again and lead me inside the venue.
I can hear the fans chant and cheer for JayB. This is happiness. This is the reason why I do the things I do for my company not only to earn money but to give this kind of happiness to every fan. This is euphoric.
I was smiling from ear to ear.
He whispered,"Is it okay if I hold your hand?? I feel at ease when I hold yours"
"Oh-okay". To my heart please stop beating so fast. He's hands are so soft. He would rub his thumb at the back of my hand and that would send a billion volts of shock to my body.
Before the concert started we visited JayB to say Hi
"Hyung!" JayB called to Harry (hyung is korean word for older brother)
"Chukahae" harry responded ( it means congratulations)
Harry introduced me in korean so I just said hi and congratulations since I don't understand hangul.
They talked for a few more minutes and then all of a sudden everyone looked at me.
I looked at Harry and asked what is happening
"Nothing" he said.
But I can feel every pair of eyes in that room looking at me so I panicked and tried to leave the room but Harry was fast he was able to grab me at my waist and whispered in my ear"where are you going??" Stay here by my side" and that just killed me again. Like damn this guy knows his words..
The concert started.
I was just having the best time when he shouted at my ear"I'm next stay here I will be looking for you". I just nodded and then turned my attention to JayB who is now singing BTW
He introduced himself and I can feel his happiness. His first song is Malibu which is my fave out of his H.A.L.O album
I was just enjoying his set. When he started walking towards my direction. I was so happy knowing that he is looking at me and he even waved at me.
Two hours passed and the concert is done.
I was so happy but my body is sore and I don't have a voice from all the shouting, screaming and jumping. I was exhausted.
I was about to follow the crowd going out when a staff of the production tapped me and ask me to follow her which I did.
At the backstage the dancers, staff, JayB and Harry are congratulating each other for a fun and safe concert I was just clapping with everybody when Harry spotted me.
"Tired??"
"Yeah, like im exhausted I want to sleep but I also want cheeseburger and fries"
He chuckled. "Okay I will get you cheeseburger and fries" and he patted my head. That made me blush so hard. Like can someone save my soul from this guy.
We did drive thru and he asked me if I can stay like for another hour just to talk and I agreed. Cannot say no since he is the reason I was able to meet JayB in person and enjoy the concert in a different way.
He ordered 2 beers for us after the beers arrived.
He asked me if I'm commited to anyone.. I said no since I am a workaholic tried to date but all of them does not understand how hard it is to run a company, maintain relationships whether family, friends or love they just see me as a cold person who focuses on the money but that is just the self-centered side of it but I do it all for everyone around me..
"You just want to be understood and loved then??" He asked.
Yes.. is all I can answer since he already KISSED ME.
Then it all went blur again.
Nothing happend aside from the kiss but now everything is a BLUR.
