We enjoyed the rest of songkran festival just like any tourist.
It was the last 2 days of my stay in thailand same as Harry.
I was just laying on his lap looking at tattoo pictures in pinterest when he suddenly said..
"Let's get a tattoo together as a sign of this trip"
I nodded"I want a minimalist elephant tattoo with H"
He agreed. We have same design just my initial on his
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After getting the tattoo done we just went to an outdoor area..
I was startled when he took my hand.
"You always get startled whenever I touch you"
"Im not just use to it been single for so long and no recent dates so sorry"
"No, don't say sorry I love it whenever you would show a reaction it means you feel me, I have an affect on you"
"Honestly I have never done something like these, never kissed, hug or stayed with a stranger I know you as a fan but still you are a stranger to me in a way or so"
"Am I still a stranger to you??" He asked
"No, but I am still uncertain of where our relationship will go.. you will be leaving tommorow evening and me I am gonna continue my travel to turkey.. Will we stay the same or will it be better for us to end it in a good note where we cherish all the memories.."
He did not respond immediately.
Im starting to panic what if I pushed him away from what I said. I was just being honest with him.
"Honestly, I have been asking that myself" he said.
He stayed silent for a while.
"Let's go back to the hotel so we can talk properly" then we were silent again.
After we have arrived I took a shower fist then him.
I sat beside him.
I don't know how to start this conversation
I kissed him. He kissed me back. I sat on his lap facing him Him holding me on my waist
I cannot ask him of what will happen to us?
I just buried my face on his shoulders and started to cry
"Why are you crying?"
"I want you I know that but do you want me too??"
"Will I stay with you for 2 weeks for nothing?? Will I kiss, hug and hold you like these if not??.. yes I want you too.. do I love you right now at this moment?? I will answer that with a NO because I don't just say those words I will tell that to you when I am already in love with you.. I want to get to know you more but reality is calling me back even you will go back to the states.. so why don't we do our adults things while getting to know more each other?? What do you think??"
I just nodded.
Then he kissed me again.
He began tracing my tattoo
"This is my favorite of all the tattoos that you have"
We cuddled all night randomly kissing each other and just asking questions about things that we want to find out from each other.
