My Reason To Live

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Warnings:
-Mentions suicide attempt (overdose)
-Throwing up/symptoms overdose

George's POV

I was fighting to survive and after a few minutes, I heard my dad storm up the stairs. He opened my door within two seconds and looked at me laying down on the floor, struggling to breathe.

Without saying anything, he grabbed his phone and started calling someone. I figured it was the emergency number and when he started talking, I could hear the emotion and sadness in his voice.

He ended the call a minute later and held my hand as he grabbed my suicide note. While reading it, tears started streaming down his face and he bit his lips to suppress himself from crying even louder.

'I'm so sorry, George. I'm so sorry for not listening to you.'

TW throwing up

I couldn't answer him and started coughing again, almost choking on my own saliva. My dad turned me more to my side and it caused me to throw up again.

TW over

'I love you so much, George. I'm sorry for getting so mad at you, I should have asked your perspective first.'

I felt so tired and had so much pain that I closed my eyes, but my dad immediately hit my head softly. 'Open your eyes, don't close them.'

I nodded slowly and gasped for air, coughing loudly after that. I ended up gagging but nothing seemed to come out and I just cried because of the pain.

The next few minutes everything seemed to go faster than I could comprehend. The door opened again and Jason ran in. He knelt down next to me with tears streaming down his face and felt my pulse.

'Did you call an ambulance?' he yelled at my dad.

'Yes,' he muttered, just staring at me in shock. 'Please, keep fighting. I can't lose you too.'

Jason ran his hand through my hair and his other hand over my chest since he saw I was in a lot of pain. 'It's going to be okay, George. We are here with you and we are going to save you.'

I sobbed softly and gasped for air again, hearing the downstairs door open again. Jason stood up to look who it was and he smiled shortly. 'Clay, you can stay with him,' Jason said as he stood up to leave me and Clay.

Clay was crying really loudly. He was crying this loud that he was almost hyperventilating and choking because of the lack of air.

'I-I-I love y-you,' he mumbled as he hugged me and pressed a kiss on my forehead. 'S-stay with m-me.'

My dad ended up leaving us together for a minute and Clay's tears dropped down on my face. 'George, I love you so much. Don't leave me, I'll go after you, okay? I promise you to stay with you so if you end up dying, I'll come with you.'

'N-no,' I whispered, but Clay seemed to be sure about what he said.

He hugged me again and wiped his tears away, just to have his face fill with them a second later.

'You're my only friend, my first boyfriend and the one person I love,' he whispered.

He was so sad that he laid down next to me on the floor and pulled my back against his chest. His hand started rubbing my chest and he constantly kissed the back of my hair. 'Don't leave,' he whispered.

He sniffed loudly and pulled me even closer. 'You're so beautiful, please don't give up. I can't miss your beautiful face, you're cute and so sweet. I don't want to lose you. George, can you try to tell me that you love me? I feel so broken and I don't know if anyone on this earth still loves me. You are the only one who did and it made me feel happy.'

'I-I-I l-love y-y-you,' I stuttered, gasping for air again. Clay kissed my cheek and I looked at him, seeing his face had filled with a small smile next to all his tears.

'I'm so proud that you're my boyfriend,' Clay whispered. 'I don't want to lose you.'

We cuddled with each other until the ambulance arrived and paramedics ran into the room. I got lifted up onto a stretcher and an IV got inserted into my vein. They put an oxide mask on my face and my dad told Clay he could go with me into the ambulance.

While driving to the hospital, Clay constantly held my hand and repeated how much he loved me. Sometimes he kissed my forehead or my cheek and gave me a hug.

I couldn't really talk because of the mask, but Clay understood and just talked to me.

'George, can I tell you again how beautiful you are? You were the first and the only person I ever fell in love with and I still am. I really love everything of you. I loved it when we kissed, I loved it when he hugged, but I also loved it when we gamed and laughed together. My stomach still fills with so many butterflies when you show physical affection.'

I smiled softly and pulled him closer to me. He kissed my face and smiled shyly. 'I love you so much and I can't live without you.'

The rest of the ride to the hospital was filled with Clay just talking and the paramedics taking care of me.

I arrived in the hospital a bit later and they told me they had to put me to sleep so they could pump my stomach. Luckily I had thrown up a few times so a lot of the poison was out of my stomach already. Though, to make sure they still needed to pump my stomach.

I got put to sleep while everyone was waiting for me in the hospital. Sapnap was here too now and he shortly said goodbye to me with his red and puffy eyes. It was obvious he cried a lot, but he was glad I didn't appear to be in extreme life danger anymore.

I just listened to everything the nurses wanted and let myself get put to sleep to survive my suicide attempt.

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Summary:
George's dad finds George, calls ambulance. George gets put to sleep to pump his stomach