tw - sh, depression
AS BILLIE ARRIVED AT SCHOOL, she got a text from Finneas.
Fin
Fin
Billie. Ocean eyes has 10,000 streams.
Me
No fuckin way bro
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Fin
Yes way
Me
Well, what do we do?
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Fin
I don't know, let's just wait and see what happens. Have you told Carl?
Me
No, I'm kinda pissed at him at the moment
Sorry I'll explain later I gotta get inside school
Love u
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Fin
Explain later
Have fun at school
Me
Ty fin
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Billie went into school and got to her classes. At lunch, Billie went to the bathroom beforehand, making her slightly late to lunch.
She walked into the cafeteria and saw Carl talking to Dom. Even after she explained why she didn't like her.
Nick turned to look back at the doors of the cafeteria, therefore, seeing Billie. He gave her a sad smile before turning back.
Billie walked passed them and walked towards Q.
"I'm Romeo and you're my Juliet." She could hear Carl in the distance. She rolled her eyes and scoffed without looking back.
It wasn't that she was jealous of Dom. It's that a Carl continued to flirt with her after telling Carl she practically bullied Billie.
If the roles were reversed, she would've cut all contact with that person.
"Hey, Q." Billie said with a sad smile.
"What's up baby?" He asked. Billie mentally cringed at the pet name. She preferred stuff like, 'love' and 'darling'.
"Fucking Carl, that's what's up." She rolled her eyes.
"Again?" He asked with some sort of rudeness to it.
Right then a loud bang went off, people hid underneath their table, others ducked down. All of the teachers pulled out their guns that Carl had sold them. Even Q hid under the table.
"Billie get under." He whispered.
"No need, someone tripped over." Billie said as she sipped on her juice box.
Billie looked over at Carl with a 'wtf' face. He just looked at her a shrugged and sipped his juice. As did Nick.
"Fucking dumb." Billie muttered and laughed.
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At the end of the day. Billie and Q walked home together, picking up Liam on their way. The two walked into the Gallagher house, seemed to be no one home, again. So they stayed there for a while.
"You can go home if you need. I don't mind." Billie said as she grabbed two glasses of water.
"Nah, don't worry about it." Q replied.
The three sat on the couch until Nick and Carl came walking through the door.
"What the fuck is he doing here?" Carl asked angrily as he walked through the door.
"He has a name, and he offered to help me look after Liam. Since none of you guys were home to do so." Billie shot back as she stood up from the couch.
"Hey, get the fuck out this is my house. Billie you had no right to bring him here." Carl shouted.
"Are you fucking serious? So you're not going to thank me for taking Liam home, which you were meant to do by the way. Or for looking after him for almost two hours?" Billie shouted back.
"No, because you brought him in without asking me." Carl shouted as he walked into the kitchen.
"Hey, uh I'm just going to leave." Q said as he placed a kiss on her forehead and wrapped his hand around her waist. "Bye babe." He said and walked out the door.
"What the fuck? Do not fucking touch her!" He yelled as Q left the house.
"What the fuck is your problem? Why don't you like him anyways? Give me a genuine proper reason why you don't like him." Billie yelled.
"Uh, I-i don't know. But even still, you brought a stranger into MY house that you do not live in." He yelled.
"Fuck you. I'm done. Ever since you came back from fucking juvie you've been the biggest asshole in the world. Go fuck yourself!" Billie yelled and grabbed her bag. "Bye Liam. I'll see you soon, ok buddy." Billie said as she knelt down to his height as he was sitting on the couch. She kissed the top of his head and flipped Carl off on her way out.
She slammed the door and tears started to form in her eyes. She rubbed them as she walked and she accidentally bumped into Fiona.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Fiona asked Billie as a tear fell down Billies cheek.
Billie scoffed. "Ask your brother." She said and stormed off.
"Fucking Carl." Fiona said as she walked up to the door with Sean.
"Eviction notice? Are you kidding me?" Fiona said as she picked up the paper.
"Just like the one we got last week." One of the Mexicans from the basement said as he walked through the gate.
Billie walked into Kev and V's and slammed the door shut. Since neither Kev or V were home. As she closed the door, she burst into tears and slid down the front door, eventually hitting the ground.
She stay there a while, before getting up and walking to her room. She opened her nightstand drawer and grabbed our her journal. She had used this to express any emotion she was feeling. At her old house, she used to write on the wall and cover it with tapestry, since she technically didn't live there anymore, she couldn't do that.
She opened her book to an empty page
Don't you know?
I'm the one
Ruining me
Ruining you
She wrote.
This blade can do so much
this tiny little blade
So much power
So much power in my hands
soon to be in my skin
But how deep do I go?
Do I go until the pain
is too much?
Until my skin won't stop bleeding?
And I'm hurt too much.
As tear drop stains filled the page. She grabbed the only thing that could bring her peace. Bring her, something. Some feeling. Anything.
As blood drops fell onto the page,
She did another
And another
And another
Until she couldn't bare the pain anymore
Until she was too weak, to go on.
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eilish - carl gallagher
Fanfiction(PLEASE READ!!!) this story is discontinued thus far. i most likely won't come back to it but you never know. the writing is truely awful, none of it was drafted nor planned i just wrote as i went so if there are plot holes (they definitely is) jus...
