IwaOi oneshots

I wont forget

Category: Soft Angst
POV: First Person (Oikawa)
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I never liked saying goodbye, and yet you forced me.

I had to watch as you were lowered into the ground, I had to speak to your parents about what had happened, and I had too clean out your room.

You had been dressed in the black tux you died in, I refused to let the workers to take it off.

You had been on your way to our wedding when you got in the accident. You died immediately.

I was heart broken for the longest time. I never left our room, and stoped going to work. I had let myself go, but I had a reason; I had lost you. You were -and still are- my best friend, my fiancé, my world, and I lost you.

You were taken from me so fast and I couldn't cope with the heartbreak.

Your parents offered for me to live with them until I got back on my feet, but I knew it would just cause them more pain, so I rejected them. They understood.

I couldn't stop myself from going through our pictures, which only made the heartbreak worse.

I know you would've hated to see me like that, but what did you expect. I couldn't move on.

I kept our rings, and I wear yours around my neck. It makes it feel like your still here with me.

It took me a year to get back on my feet. I got my job back, and I worked harder than ever.
My boss understood what I was going through and he tried to help me through it. I was super great full for him.

I still have your pictures framed, and I kept everything you had owned. I just couldn't bring myself to throw them out.

Your parents constantly came to check on me, I appreciated it greatly. They were the only ones who really understood what I was going through.

It took me another two years to able to think about you without breaking down. I used to only dwell on the sad memories, or what I could've had if you were still alive, now I focus on the happy ones, on what I did have with you.

I was slowly moving on and it scared me to death, but I knew it was bound to come. It was a long process, but it was worth it.

I'm so proud of myself.

I'm OK now.
It been five years since you died, and I've fully moved on. I know that I can't have you back, and I can finally embrace it.

I hope you know that I'll never forget about you, and I hope you know that I'll always be thinking about you.

If there was a way I could say one final goodbye I'd take it, but just know that I love you too pieces.

I won't forget you Iwa-chan.