A Glimpse Into My Life (Let Go and Let God)

Chapter 14

School is out and it's time to go home. Here comes my agony and worries. I hate going home after school.

It's like I'm going back to hell all over again. My mood changes every time I'm going back home. I have to pick up Ryn and Reign from school, clean up, cook and manage the home whilst Laverne Maddison Lotts drink her life away.

I don't even get to tend to myself, I don't even study. So how would I go honour roll. I'm like the mother and father at the same time.

Being the eldest is really hard. I need someone to take care of me and tend to my needs too. My mom on the other hand don't care about life. She would sit and drink her days away.

My father on the other hand had travel since I was 10. I heard he's married with a family in Germany. Now we don't even exist in his world no more.

And now it was only Hodge Ramy Lotts who cared bout me a little. He's the one paying all our school fees through his ward from the company.

If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have gone this far or ever been to CWA. He's a heaven-sent from high above.
Sometimes I believe he's my father, I wanted to change my surname to Lotts but Laverne wouldn't let me.

If only I had a choice, I would've run away from this hell hole but I can't abandon my babies. There's no one there for them, no parents I would say because Hodge is miles away from them.

God, please help me become rich, so I can help my family. I love them so much and I hate where we are. Please save my mom from drinking her life away and save my dad wherever he is. Please help us and make me rich.

I know prayers don't come true but this is mine, every single day. I know a day will come and I'll let go and let God work his marvellous miracles.