A Glimpse Into My Life (Let Go and Let God)

Chapter 20

I wasn't the only one affected by this. Mom, Reign and most especially Ryn. LuRyn was his favorite person in the world. He loved her so much and she loved him back.

She was affected by this so bad and it hurt me to see her cry. LaReign was oblivion to everything.
They're fallen apart because of this. Even me, I'm shattered greatly.

So that evening, I decided to take a walk down the road to clear my head. To think of my next step in life.
Whilst walking, I couldn't think of any positive thoughts. Nothing was positive, and my head started to think faster than it should.

I came back, turbid and tired and stress and depressed, you name it. I saw Ryn lying on the couch sweating. I rushed quickly to her to observe her. Her skin was burning with fever.

Lord! I am confused right now. Don't know what to do. I decided to wipe her skin with a cold water so her temperature level would drop.

Dear Lord, please save my beloveth. I gave her a paracetamol to break down the fever.

I saw mom's slipper, she must've been back before me. Maybe she's too drunk away to notice anything. We're all affected by this. Reign was playing, you know how kids are. We never told her anything.

I went into mom's room to check up on her and to my greatest surprise, she was lying right on the floor. I thought it was as usually but later did I know it was O'D.

She'd overdosed herself with pills and alcohol. My heart started to beat faster. I thought she was dead, I yelled for help but there was no one there to help. Not even God at this point.

I wondered how the nosey neighbors couldn't hear my cry. Dear God, please don't let her die. I've already lost enough and I can't no longer. I don't want to lose her.

I decided to check her thoroughly and she wasn't breathing. Jesus!!