Not Warriors- Awsten Knight

Chapter 17

There was a sense of adrenaline coursing through Claire's veins as she stood in the photography pit with Jawn waiting for the boys to make their way onto the stage.

She thinks back to local shows in Houston that she would help promote and sell tickets for, and how excited Awsten would be when they sold out the 110 cap venues that they would book themselves and now she would get to watch him play main stage at Warped Tour.

To say that she was proud would be an understatement, Warped Tour was special for her.

After telling Otto just a few days prior about her and Awsten had met at Warped Tour, she found herself thinking back to that show and the day that they had together.

They had run into each other, quite literally ran into each other and just stuck together for the rest of the day. Sneaking backstage where they definitely were not supposed to be, and it was where they shared their first kiss, once they found out how close they lived to each other the rest was history.

Claire smiled brightly as the boys made their way on stage, Awsten looked so at home up there it was a stark contrast to the shy boy that used to close his eyes while he say because his stage fright was so bad but there was absolutely no denying that he was born to play music.

She raised her camera snapping a few pictures here and there while Awsten talked and she turned to Jawn with and eyebrow raise "Victorious t shirt?" she asked confused and Jawn threw his head back laughing.

"I am not explaining that one, you ask him after." he said still giggling and while Claire was still confused she nodded her head slightly, turning back excited to hear these new songs.

First up was Blonde, her jaw dropped when she heard him first start to sing. His voices had grown so much over the years, and she thought that he sounded incredible.

There was no part of the song she didn't like, from the guitar to the drums all of it was perfect.

"I never wanted to be thinking this loud, I never asked about the when, why or how, I wanted privacy, routine and everything between, while they're just finding me out."

Claire's eyes grew wide listening to the lyrics, she had experienced first hand just how little privacy the boys had, and these lyrics let her know exactly how that made him feel. Awsten loved routine, it was something that he would thrive off of and she never really stopped to think about the fact that there was probably little to none of that when the schedule the band demanded was hectic at all time.

"I was stuck at home for some months, I didn't love myself, before we sold out shows, before I needed help."

She couldn't help but wonder if this line was about the time that he spent after his knee surgery, it had definitely taken a toll on his mental health but she had no idea it had gotten to the point that he didn't love himself anymore and she felt guilty for not recognizing it back then.

"She's my world devastator"

Another line that stuck out to her, she knew that these songs were about another girl and it makes her heart ache to think that someone had treated him so poorly that she tore him down into nothing.

Before she knew it, Lucas was running a guitar out to Awsten before their next song begin and she felt her breath hitch in the back of her throat and her heart drop.

It wasn't just any guitar, it was the guitar that she had gotten him all of those years ago for Christmas. She had no idea that he still used it to this day, and she's surprised that it had held up for this long across tours and album records.