Not Warriors- Awsten Knight

Chapter 51

"I hate to break it to you but I think your master plan of us being dry before we head back home is probably not going to work out." Claire says with a small laugh, pointing between both of them.

Awsten shrugs his shoulders, nodding in agreement. "But the water just looked so refreshing." he teases and Claire makes a face at him.

"Nothing about that water is refreshing, there's a reason why it was closed for swimming throughout our entire high school years love." she points out and he waves her off.

Awsten shakes his head, picking up a blueberry and tossing it into his mouth. "Yeah but it's fine for swimming now, or we'll end up with an entire arm or like go sterile or something wild like that." he says with a laugh.

Claire frowns slightly shaking her head, "Third arm could be cool, I could get a lot more editing done if I had an extra hand." she says thoughtfully, and Awsten turns his head to the side slightly.

"And the second part?" he asks curiously.

"You're asking me how I feel about us becoming sterile?" she repeats, her tone shocked and Awsten laughs.

"Okay when you word it that way it sounds insane." he says still laughing, and she narrows her eyes at him.

"And wording it any other way wouldn't make it sound less insane?" she asks playfully as she watches his posture soften.

"It's an honest question regardless of how I'm wording it bear." he says softly clearing his throat, "we always used to talk about kids and the future, I guess I'm just wondering if that sort of thing still stands you know?" he says softly, and she nods scooting closer to him on the blanket tucking her arm around his waist.

"You're right it is an honest question." she assures him taking a deep breath, "I just wonder how that sort of thing would work in the future with you guys touring, you're only getting bigger which means more band stuff." she explains.

"Did you know that Geoff is having a kid?" he asks her quietly, and her eyes grow wide as she shakes her head.

"I don't normally talk to Geoff to be honest, so no I didn't know that." she replies, and he clears his throat.

"The baby should be here by the end of tour, I'm going to be her godfather." he says happily, as his voice cracks at the end and Claire smiles, twisting the ring on her finger in circles.

Claire leans into Awsten resting her head on his shoulder, running a hand up and down his back. "I don't think they could of picked anyone better for that role than you." she tells him softly, taking in a deep breath.

"But yeah, I think that sort of thing still stands. I could only ever picture myself having kids with you, that never changed." she replies, looking down at her hands.

"Do you think we would be parents by now if we would have stayed together?" Awsten mumbles and Claire shrugs.

"Maybe? I think there's a good possibility, but I don't think we'll ever actually know the answer to that question. I always used to say that I wanted to be married before babies, but now I'm just happy to have you. A ring and a piece of paper doesn't mean anything to me." Claire says, his voice wavering and Awsten looks over at her with a small smile.

"So sometime in the future?" he asks curiously, and Claire lets out a watery laugh nodding in agreement.

"Yeah, in the future. However far that may be." she assures him as he pulls her in for a hug.

"I don't think putting a time restraint on it makes sense, whatever happens, happens though." she mumbles into his side and he presses a kiss to the top of her forehead lovingly.

"Hey Aws?" she asks quietly, and he picks up his head to look down at her again.

"What's up bear?" he asks her curiously, holding her tighter than he previously had been.

"My lease is up two weeks after we get back from Warped, and I don't know how to even begin to express any of this but I feel like at this point I can't picture myself living in Philly knowing that you'll be in California and I'm not saying that we have to move in together or anything like that but what if I looked for an apartment in LA near you? If I'm getting ahead of myself or anything you can just shut me up-" she starts to ramble before Awsten hushes her softly.

"Claire." Awsten says cautiously looking at her, his eyes twinkling. "Do you want to move in with me?" he asks trying to mask his excitement, and she smiles softly.

"I don't want to be that far apart from you, I don't know what that means for if we are living together or not but I know that Philly just won't be home for me if you're not there." she responds as she feels her face heating up.

"What do you say about coming to once tour is over to see where I'm living and see if you like it? And if you don't then we find you somewhere close to me?" Awsten asks her softly, and Claire laughs softly.

"I lived in a 500 square foot apartment with you Aws, I don't think it'll be an issue of me liking it or not." she replies softly and he nods, pulling her chin up to match her eyes with him.

"Then move in with me." Awsten says genuinely, "I'll come back to Philly after the tour and we can pack your stuff and go out to LA together."

"Are you sure?" Claire asks him quietly, and he nods with a smile on his face.

"I'm positive, I want you with me all the time bear. I can't picture you across the country, we'll cross bridges when it comes to work and being on tour but I know that we can make this work." he assures her.

Claire smiles brightly, looking at him. "Can I kiss you?" she asks him softly and he nods eagerly.

"Always." he agrees leaning in to softly press his lips to hers. "I can't wait to live with you again." he whispers against her mouth.

"We also will have a bedroom and a living room this time." he says with a laugh that she returns.

"We've made it to the big leagues to have separate rooms Aws." she says with a giggle.