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"we should get back together. for real this time."

nini searches my eyes for a split second, and the moment i lean in is the moment she pulls away.

"ricky... we can't," she sighs deeply, dropping her gaze to the floor.

i stare at her in disbelief. "excuse me?"

"god, i shouldn't have done this," she covers her face with the hand that held my silver necklace, frustration clear even when she's hiding. what the hell is going on?

"what? done what? sorry, did i misunderstand everything that happened in like the past two weeks?"

"ricky just..." she opens then closes her hand into a fist. "i'm going home. give your dad and miss jenn a congrats for me."

and just like that, nini begins to walk away.

but i'm not letting her go this time.

"nini, wait!"

at the sound of my voice, she picks up the pace and starts sprinting through the crowd. i do the same with all my efforts, making sure i never take my eyes off her.

everything... everything that happened these past weeks...

did it mean nothing to her?

"nothing is really happening..."

i'm an idiot.

i thought we were in a good place now. i thought things were getting better.

i thought wrong.

and it's not that i'm frustrated because she said no - i know for a fact that i caused her too much pain in the past and i won't blame her for not wanting to risk going through that again - but why is she running away? why can't she just explain to me what i'm not doing right? or what she wants, or what any of this is to her?

why does it feel like the one person i should know the best is a complete stranger to me now?

i leave all the wedding chatter behind me as i exit the main stage area. i look left and right and lucky me, i catch a glimpse of nini entering a room down the right.

i make my way towards there, taking in deep breaths as the only sound i hear is the clacks of my leather shoes.

the moment i'm in front of the door, i realize i know this room.

it's where nini and i practiced the rooftop scene in high school musical that night.

i'm about to place my hand on the doorknob but then it opens abruptly. nini appears - clear with the intent to run off somewhere else - but my body blocks her path.

she silently curses under her breath before turning back around into the room. i follow her inside - closing the door behind us.

"interesting choice of location," i laugh sarcastically, watching her back as she moves further into the room - closer to that damn piano.

she turns around suddenly with an irritated expression on her face. "i didn't choose this on purpose, it was the closest door!"

a tense silence washes over us as i stare at her in disappointment.

i let out a shaky sigh and pinch the bridge of my nose in an attempt to stay calm. i look up at her before saying, "nini, what's going on here? cause if i'm being honest, i'm lost."

"this... it wasn't supposed to be serious," she says unconvincingly, unable to meet my gaze.

"it wasn't supposed to be serious? can you explain this then?!" i ask, taking a step closer to her and gripping onto the silver chain around my neck with such force.