Loud

Chapter 17

Here you are guys! Poor Andy in this chapter :( slow update im sorry but enjoy! Make sure to comment and vote thanksssss xo

Andy’s POV

And Harry’s silly for wanting to run in the rain outside and I was right when I said “Come on Harry, you’ll get sick” to which he would just smile his dimpled smile and say “Oh come on Andy, don’t act like you don’t want to just run wild in the rain with me” and he’s right, like always “I want to run wild with you always Harry” and he takes my hand and we run wild because like how could we not.

But that’s how we ended up both sick sitting on the couch wrapped in blankets to keep us warm, although Harry practically stole my blanket because as he calls it, sharing is caring and I kind of care a lot so how could I not share my blanket with him. “I think I need to go to the doctor Harry” and really I felt sick but it wasn’t because of a cold, my stomach and god did it hurt bad “It’s only a little cold Andy, there’s no need to go to the doctors” he says without even looking away from the television “No Harry, I have pains in my stomach” and he looks at me and sighs but nods “Okay baby” and kisses my forehead “We’ll go tomorrow” and so we stayed like this for the rest of the night, but we were both sick because I was right when I told Harry not to run outside in the rain but he wanted to run wild so how could I not.

And tomorrow came and Harry just like he promised took me to the doctors and really I hate waiting rooms because they smell of sadness and loneliness and as I look to a boy to my left in a tux with his head staring straight forward at the clock with absolute misery and heartache on his face, my heart breaks because waiting rooms smell like sadness and loneliness and that poor boy represents just that “I’m going to get a coffee, do you want one?” and coffee just really isn’t my thing “No thanks” and he leaves and I find myself staring at this boy who looked around my age and not once did he stop staring at that damn clock.

“If you had one wish what would you wish for?” and for a second I didn’t realise he was talking to me but then again how would I because he’s still looking at that clock “Sorry?” and he finally looks at me “I would wish for time to stop” and I wonder why “Why?” and he doesn’t look like he wants to explain but why would he, he’s a total stranger “Because maybe then all the pain and waiting would just stop, maybe if time stopped, everything could just stop for a while, I just want it to all stop” and now I know I was right the boy to my left in a tux with his head staring straight forward at the clock with absolute misery and heartache on his face and my heart breaks because waiting rooms smell like sadness and loneliness and that poor boy represents just that.

“Why are you here” and I felt rude for asking but I really wanted to know and he looks at me with heartache and misery clear on his face “It’s my wedding day” and now I really do feel sad for this boy “And my supposed to be wife is lying in a hospital bed fighting for her life because she just wanted it to be perfect” and a tear rolls down his eye “I wish time would stop and I could just take a minute to breathe, all I want to do is breathe” I stare at this boy speechless “How does someone go on after losing someone they were supposed to spend the rest of their life with?” and like I’m supposed to know the answer to his question but I don’t but boy do I wish I did because this boy to my left in a tux with his head staring straight forward at the clock with absolute misery and heartache on his face and my heart breaks because waiting rooms smell like sadness and loneliness and that poor boy represents just that.

“Dad” and I look to see a little girl holding the hand of the man I love walking down the hallway towards us, she lets go of his hand and runs up to the man and stands in front of him “Why are you crying?” and she stands on her tiptoes and wipes his tears with her hands “I just got something in my eye princess but don’t worry I’m okay” and she smiles slightly at him “Dad, this is Harry and I got a bit lost and he helped me find my way back here” and the turns to Harry “Thank you” and Harry nods and smiles “No problem” and the little girl looks at me and smiles so I smile back because how could you not “Are you Harry’s Andy?” and I’m shocked and I look at Harry and he is smiling at me “I am, and who might you be?” she walks in front of me “I’m Annabel, named after my mum” and I can see her father drown in sadness and misery just a little more “Well Annabel you have a beautiful name” “Are you and Harry going to get married?” and I laugh because never have I ever thought about that “Oh honey, not right now” and she nods and my name is called by the doctor so say goodbye to the little girl and stand up to follow the doctor into his office.

“We have your results back from the blood test and seems there’s a problem” and now I’m worried “I want to do an ultrasound, not because your pregnant but because we want to double check something, is that okay” and I nod “Okay just lie on this table and pull up your shirt please” and I do as I say “Okay so this might be a little cold at first but you’ll get used to it” and he’s wrong because clearly something isn’t okay so I’m not used to it and I look at Harry who is sitting in the chair next to me looking worried and he really frown like that, it might cause early wrinkles on his beautiful face “Okay, were done, you can step off now” and I do and go sit back in my chair.

The doctor seems sad for some reason and I’m just so sick of everything about this place being sad “Look I have some bad news for you” just so much bad news in this damn place “Well what is it” I hear Harry ask “Miss there seems to a problem with your uterus” and I really don’t understand what he’s getting at “I’m sorry to say, you’re infertile” and suddenly everything’s so quiet and I swear time stops, I mean I think it really stops because I can’t hear or see anything around me anymore.

“What does that mean?” Harry asks the doctor and he sighs “She is unable to have or carry children”

I just wanted a family.

Harry’s POV

And I never wanted a family but Andy didn’t deserve to have that taken away from her and as we walk out of the doctor’s office and into the waiting room Annabel runs up to Andy and hugs her leg “I want you to have this” and it’s a drawing of a girl holding hands with a child “It’s me and my mum but my dad says that she won’t be able to get it, so I want you to have it” and I can see my beautiful Andy’s face break but she’s far too nice to show it to Annabel “Thank you, it’s lovely” and the little girl runs back to that boy who was wearing a tux and never stopped looking at the clock, Andy turns to him and says “She’s how you go on” and a tear rolls down her face as she walks out of the hospital.

We make it home and everything is silent, too silent and it’s all just too sad. And I never wanted a family but Andy didn’t deserve to have that taken away from her “I’m so sorry baby” and she looks at me and laughs but it’s a sad laugh, it’s a laugh that comes through as her heart breaks in two, it’s a laugh that is laced with pain and misery.

“I just wanted a family” and I sigh because how could I not “I know”