"You're beautiful" I smile at the blue eyed blonde haired boy with grey sweatpants hanging low on his hips, his body isn't as toned as Harry's but Harry hasn't called or texted so I don't really mind "Are you hungry?" I nod and he smiles at me with his straight white teeth and I wondered if he had ever had braces to get them like that. Niall kisses me on the head which Harry hasn't done in so long so I don't mind and I'm left alone in a bed to big for my little figure which is an all to familiar feeling but im not cold so I don't mind.
"I have to go" my phone is still empty of new texts or calls so I need to leave because Harry is probably alone and I don't want him to ever be alone "but only just made you breakfast" and smiles and nods down to the plate in his hands which is filled with delicious home cooked food "I'm in love" Niall sighs "I know" "please don't pity me" he cracks a smile "you're beautiful"
I laugh because it's so untrue "I'm a mess" Niall just smiles and puts down the plates and puts his arms around my waist "you're a beautiful mess" and I kiss him because it's the next day and Harry's probably awake and my phone is empty of new texts or calls.
"Stay?" I grab my jacket and kiss him again because his eyes are blue and I'm used to brown "Will I see you again?" I smile at Niall because he's so nice and cares, so I take his phone and put my number in it "hopefully" the purple love bite on my collar bone proves it because there's still a lipstick stain that hasn't come out yet and Harry's awake and alone.
It's quite when I walk through the door of my flat but i'm tired and dirty so I walk to the bathroom and take a shower because I don't want the stillness of a bath, I don't want to think right now, I just want to be clean. The hot water scorches my skin but I don't mind it's soothing and washes away the dirt of last night even though I know there's stains of purple left behind. My body's raw red however the remains of last night are still evident on my body.
He's in the bedroom when I finish my shower and he doesn't look tired but I am "You weren't there when I woke up" please Harry im tired and dirty I just want to sleep "I know"no pause before he speaks, like he's had this planned out in his head "you left" I do know this and so does he but it's not okay for me to do it because Harry is the only one who get's to leave and I don't know why "Where did you go?" so I tell the truth "I wanted waffles" and I'm still tired because I didn't sleep last night because of the blue eyed blonde haired boy "that's not my shirt" there's nothing I can say back because his was long forgotten last night when it was discarded from my body and I didn't want to be reminded that his eyes were now brown instead of green.
"I'm tired Harry, lets sleep" He just stares at me and turns around "Please Harry don't leave again, just stay with me baby, let's sleep" and he stops at the door "No" it's like the whole conversation was a written script "let's have sex" I'm tired and dirty but I want him to stay "You're tired and dirty, go to sleep baby" so I cry and he watches because there's nothing he can do to help so he turns and walks out muttering an "I love you baby so much" under his breath but he's mad, so mad that she's tired and dirty and the lipstick stain hasn't come out yet.
4 days and I'v lost count of how long he's been gone but eventually he'll be back because he always is so i trust that he loves me and I reply to Niall's text to come over, so he does and now he's at my front door which I open and stare at the blue eyed blonde haired boy "Hi" I smile "Hey" and I let him in because Harry's still not home sand I'v lost count of how long he's been gone but eventually he'll be back " I brought waffles" Niall smiles at me and I kiss him because I'm craving waffles and Niall.
Harry needs to come home.
"Where is he?" I don't know why Niall is asking me this while we both lay naked in the spare bed in my flat because my bed is Harry's bed "I don't know" I don't cry because the lipstick stain finally came out and my love bite has faded "When will he be back?" please Niall stop asking questions "I don't know, I never know" I notice fresh purple marks on my skin and I run my fingers over the one on my hip bone and I feel dirty again but I don't make any effort to move because I'm warm and I haven't been warm in awhile "want to come stay with me?" yes i want to say but of course I say "No" I need to be here when he gets back, I always am.
Niall throws his head back when he laughs and I think that's so nice because he cares even if my joke wasn't even that funny and I have pizza sauce beside my lip "It wasn't that funny Niall" and he just laughs again and smiles "you have no idea how beautiful you are do you" and I look down and smile because it's Niall "It's getting late" I can see he doesn't want to leave, he would never say that though "Alright, I should go" so he puts away our leftover mess which he didn't have to because it's only mess so I can relate.
We walk to the door and I'm tired again all of a sudden "Bye Niall" he kisses me and again tells me I'm beautiful and leaves. So I grab Harry's shirt and climb into to bed and It's cold and lord do I just want Harry home.
I feel the bed dip down and I can hear his breathing and I don't want to turn around because what's the point, I'm tired and he's Harry but of course I do, so I cuddle into him and let us fall asleep like everything is okay and that he didn't leave again and that he wasn't gone for 3 days without calling or texting or that he doesn't have a fresh lipstick stain on his shirt.
SO FOURTH CHAPTER GUYS!!!! i know this story is a litle bit repetive but it's meant to be okay!! so if you feel like you've read the last paragraph before its because you have! this is just show how damaged and stained there 'relationship' is x
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Fanfiction"Oh pretty girl, we're gonna be epic" And boy was he right. In which Andy and Harry are too in love & and Niall's too innocent but he's in love & Sam's a liability but she's in love So everyone's really just in love but Harry promised they woul...
