Loud

Chapter 29

Andy's POV

"So you both talked about then?" Niall says as I sit on his couch two days later. But no we didn't really talk about it and I haven't seen him since that night and it's painful because I miss green eyes but brown eyes are what is reality now so I sit and stare ahead and think about how it's been two days since I've seen him "No we didn't really" and Niall frowns like he doesn't understand "Then what were you two talking about?" and I sigh "So much has changed since I left" and he looks at me "It's been over a year, can you really blame him" "Not just him, but you and my house and everything. I used to love London weather but it's all a bit painful now" and he places a coffee mug in front of me and I take it in my hands and let it warm me up because recently I've been feeling a bit cold and I don't think it's from the weather anymore "I'm still Niall" he smiles lightly and I chuckle and smile at him "I know and I'm glad" he brings his beer to his lips and I think about how early it is and really it's too early to start drinking "It's 2:00 Niall" he looks from me to his beer and then back again then says "But a lot has changed since you left over 365 days ago" and he takes another sip and I begin to realise I never once asked him how he was doing and how he felt "Niall I didn't mean to-" but he stops me with the wave of his hand "Nah, don't worry about it hey" but I can tell he doesn't mean that so I am worried and my forehead creases and my eyes wonder to my coffee cup which suddenly turned cold "I should get back to my hotel" I say as I stand to make my way to the door "Why do you even bother staying at a hotel, you have a home" and I sigh because Harry's my home but right now isn't our time "Niall, that isn't my home anymore" "But most of your stuff is there, what are you meant to do" I laugh a little "It's just stuff Niall, I think I have bigger things to worry about" so I begin to walk out the door but Niall's voice stops me

"Then stay here" and I stop walking and I turn around "You've already done enough for me Niall" and he shrugs "Andy would you just stop being stubborn for a second and listen to me. Plus I would prefer to know you're safe and not staying in some dingy hotel" and I think and I think and I'm sure Harry wouldn't like this but were not together and I haven't seen him for two days and it's like Niall could read my mind "He won't mind, he would want you safe and closer to him anyway, even though he won't admit it" and it's selfish of Harry and I to put Niall in the middle but he offered and I would really like to be closer to home so I say "Niall I don't know" I say dragging out the last word "Andy shut up and just move in with me okay" and he used to be in love and I never asked how he felt or if he was okay so I say "Okay, yeah" and I smile slightly at him as he smiles a smile I haven't seen on him since I left over 365 days ago.

So I walk through Niall's door later that night with the same duffle bag over my shoulder as I did when I left over a year ago although it is relatively fuller then it used to be and he looks at me weird "That's all your stuff" and I shrug "When you're running away from something you tend to travel light" and he looks like he understand and takes my bag off my shoulder and places it on the couch and claps his hands "Well since we got that out of the way, I say we celebrate" and I lightly giggle but shake my head "Niall I'm tired I think I'll just go to bed" and he looks taken back by my reply and dramatically says "But you just got here" and I sigh because he's really too excited and I'm honestly just really tired but he continues in a quite whisper "I want to spend time with you Andy, I haven't seen you for over a year and I missed you" and it breaks my heart because I never once asked him how he was doing and how he felt and that if he was okay "Okay Niall" and smiles and tells me to go change into something more fitting for a club appropriate scene and that he promises it won't be bad as I begin to question he choice of scenery but I oblige anyway because it's Niall and it's been over 365 days and I never once asked him how he was doing and how he felt and that if he was okay.

We enter the club and hour later and I already want to go home as I witness horny young adults grinding against each other on the dance floor and over intoxicated men try and hit on vulnerable women and I really just want to go home now. But Niall leads us to the VIP area and I make a mental note to ask him about that later but the bouncer seems to recognise Niall and smiles at him and lets us straight through and I wonder how many times Niall has been here and why he was drinking a beer at 2:00 in the afternoon "Where are we going?" say as Niall grabs my hand and leads to me towards a group of people who are seated inn cushion couches around a table with important looking people "Just to a table with a bunch of friends" he then stops and turns around and looks me in the eyes and gently rubs him thumb against my hand which is still in his "I promise you'll be okay, they're great people, just like me and you like me don't you" and he flashes a cheeky smile and I shove him a little but he's right, I do like him and if these people are anything like him then I must like them to so we make our way over to the table and they all begin to greet Niall with cheery smiles and overpriced drinks in their hand to which Niall returns with the same amount of enthusiasm, they then notice me and do the same thing to me "Who's your friend over here Niall" and he turns and smiles at me with an encouraging smile "This is Andy, she- " he pauses for a second and looks at me then back at the group "She moved away a while back and decided to come home" and they all cheer for my return yet I know none of these people but there happy is a good thing so I find myself smiling, one of the guys with blonde hair, a darker shade then Niall's says "Well any friend of Niall's is a friend of ours" and they all agree and move down to make room for Niall and I and everyone begins their own personal conversation and a girl to my right says "So, what brought you home" she smiles at me which I return and she continues "I'm India by the way" and I say "Andy, ah it's a long story actually" meaning I don't really want to talk about it because what is talking about it going to do when I haven't seen him in since two nights ago and I just moved in with Niall and I kind of just want to go home. India nods her head and asks me if I want a drink to which Niall answers for me and says to get me the strongest drink they have and I look at him as if he's crazy and he just laughs and his laugh is so loud and happy I can't help but laugh with him and shake my head because how could I not.

And about 5 drinks later and the whole table is laughing at something Sean said who I learned was the friend with short black hair and is dating Jane who is a red head seated to his left "Andy" I hear Niall say over the loud music so I look at him and his eyes are glossed over and a little red from the alcohol "Do you want another drink" and everything's a little fuzzy and brown eyes haven't swarmed my mind in a while so I give him a nod and he smiles at me before getting up and going to get our drinks. I stand to go make my way to the bathroom because as much as I would like too I can't ignore my bladder forever, I guess I can't ignore a lot of things but my mind is a little fuzzy so I try my best. I stare at my reflection in the bathroom mirror after I relieve the bladder situation and my eyes are red and my hair is slightly greasy from the humidity of the club and I can feel the alcohol running through my veins and I picture brown eyes but blue eyes are waiting for me outside this bathroom so I shake my head and exit the bathroom and my ears are immediately drowned with the sound of music and then atmosphere of too much tension. "Hey you're back, I was worried you'd drowned in there or something" Niall says as I take a seat back at the table and places my drink in front of me but his words come out more slow and slurred then normal and I think he's too much to drink "Niall I think you should stop drinking, you seem like you've had enough for tonight" and I can't really talk because my head is fuzzy but Niall's word are slurring and he's swaying from side to side "Nah I'm fine" he grins at me but it doesn't reach his eyes and Niall seems sadder in his drunken state so I leave my untouched drink on the table and stand up and grab Niall's hand "I'm a little tired Niall, cam we go home please" and he looks at me but doesn't protest and we say our goodbyes and leave the club into the cold London night.

We walk silently back to Niall's apartment just walking side by side and I listen to his breathing and it calms my drunken state and when Niall sways from side to side I giggle and he turns to me "I've missed that sound" and it's sad to witness and he sighs and keeps walking and I blame myself. We stay in silence as Niall kicks off his shoes and males his way into the kitchen and fills a glass up with water and I stand behind him and it's silent. Just so much silence and I'm just so tired of silence "Nia-" and he throws the glass cup against the wall beside him and I jump from the impact and I knew he wasn't okay and I knew I should have asked him if he was okay "I was in love too you know" and I do know "I know you were" he turns around and his red glassed eyes stare at me and he looks just so tired "Then why didn't you think about me, it was always Harry" and I did think about him but brown eyes flooded through my mind "I was hurting too but you couldn't see that because it was Harry first" and I say nothing because he's right and he knows it and there's not much I can say that will change it "You never even asked if I was okay" and instead of saying anything I walk up to him and wrap my arms around him and let him bury his head in the crook of my neck "Blue eyes and blonde hair" he pulls back and stares at me with glassed over red eyes "I know I never said it or I never showed you Niall and I know how I didn't think about how this would affect you but blue eyes and blonde hair never left my mind" and he just hugs me tighter and we stay like that for a little while and he leads me into his bedroom even though I have one of my own and I don't protest, I never do and we undress down to our underwear and we climb into bed and I feel his arm snake around my waist and pull me close "Harry is my best friend" and I pull him closer behind me "He used to be mine too" and he doesn't respond and I don't know if in his drunken state he fell right asleep but I close my eyes and fight away thoughts or brown eyes and feel myself slip slowly into unconscious and I'm not sure if I heard him or not or maybe I was dreaming but I hear a whisper

"Don't leave me again"

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