Loud

Chapter 33

Just a quick note, Thomas's name (Andy's 'husband') was changed to Leo!!

Harry's POV

I was harsh but I'm mad so don't I deserve to be. She's married and there's a baby and I didn't let her explain anything but what's there to explain because I was on the phone to her fucking husband and he mentioned something about a baby and that's really all that matters. So I throw another glass at the wall and it shames into pieces but so did I when I spoke to her fucking husband on the phone.

I walk towards the photo frame sitting on top of the cabinet and I stare at the couple who are smiling and they look happy, genuinely fucking happy and I can feel my heart hurt and I just want all the hurt to stop, to finally fucking stop. I pick up the frame and green eyes are there and I really fucking miss that but im so mad and im so hurt I throw the frame across the room and watch as it hits the wall and smashes into a million pieces and at that exact time the door opens and Sam comes through smiling but it immediately disappears as she witnesses what is happening and she looks at me with confusion and pity "Don't look at me like that" and she sighs but closes the door behind her, heading straight to the kitchen and begins cleaning up the glass shattered everywhere and it reminds me of her and how she would clean up my messes and how we used to be such a fucking mess "Don't do that" but she doesn't stop "You can't leave it like this Harry, just go get cleaned up" "No just fucking leave it" and she stops and looks at me and sighs but drops the broom anyway and heads towards the bedroom which I think she's started calling her own.

Andy's POV

He holds me and whispers sweet nothings into my ear as I let myself stay on the floor and allow tears to freely flow down my face "It's okay Andy, he didn't mean it. He's just mad" and Niall really is just a good person "There's so much to explain, he wouldn't let me explain" I cry harder and think back to the look of hurt and disgust on his face and I cry harder.

"Andy?" he whispers like if he talks to loud I might start to cry again and neither of us want that. I look at him with eyes that are puffy and red and he looks at me with pity so I look away because he was the only person to ever not look at me with pity "I need you to explain it to me" I sigh and remove myself from his arms and stand. I move towards my purse and take out the photo I kept on me at all times and walk back to Niall and place it in his hands. "That baby girl's name is Steph and his name is Leo" and Niall stares at the picture "And that women in the picture is his wife and Steph's mother" he stares back at me confused so I take a breath, in and out, in and out

"She died a year ago" and he looks at me while I explain the story.

*Flashback*

He laughs and his eyes are closed and he throws his head back "Seriously, there just birds" and he continues to laugh while I stay far away from the little creatures he holds in his hands "I don't care, please just put them back in there cage" and he chuckles but does as I ask and places the two birds back in the cage "You look pretty when you're scared" he says with a smirk and I smile back at him and say "What I didn't look pretty beforehand" he laughs and walks up to me and puts his arms around me "You're the prettiest, most beautiful girl I have ever seen" and he leans down and places his lips on mine and we stay like this until brown eyes and curly hair flash through my mind, so I clam up and I pull away and immediately regret it as I stare into hazel eyes that are filled with wonder and confusion "What's wrong?" I shake my head "Nothing" I smile and step away "Clair, are you sure?" and it's still so uncommon for someone to call me that because it's not my name but I needed a new start, a fresh start, just until he was ready for me to come home "Yeah, I'm fine Leo, I promise" he looks at me unsure but doesn't say anything but just smiles and moves towards the lounge room where faint cries can be heard and I breathe out a breath I was holding in and follow after him.

"How she doing?" Leo turns around "Good" he smiles and looks down at Steph with so much love it makes me smile, he walks over to me and places the baby girl in my arms and she looks up at me and smiles and starts to giggle and I laugh along with her "Come on baby, you need to be fed" so I turn around and head towards the kitchen where I heat up a bottle and sit down on the couch to feed her. Leo sits next to me and I look up and smile at him "Thank you" and I look at him with confusion "For what?" and he sighs and looks at the baby then back at me and puts his hand on my cheek and I can't help but lean into his hand "For helping me do this" and I shake my head at him "You don't have to thank me Leo, of course I would do anything for Steph" and smiles "But you didn't have to, I know taking on this would have been a lot and going through what we've had to go through just to get here was a lot-" but I stop him "I wouldn't change a thing, you know that" and he smiles and leans in and kisses my head "You would have made a great mum Clair and I know technically were married, but you will make a great wife to someone someday "

"She knows you love her right, even if she's not here anymore" and he smiles sadly at me and stares down at the beautiful baby girl in my arms "I look at her and I see her face every day and I can't help but feel im betraying her" and I stare at the sad man who really lost someone he was going to spend the rest of his life with "They would have taken her away, you did what you had to do" "But what about you, what about Harry?" and it hurts to hear his name

"One day, when I go home I will explain to him how I married a wonderful man because he was going to lose the one thing left in the world he loved and he will understand, because it's Harry and he loves me, so he's going to understand"

*End of flashback*

Niall stares at me and I breathe in and out, in and out.

"He didn't let me explain" and Niall stares "I married him because the state was going to take away his child, the thought he wasn't fit enough to look after a child on his own so when I met him, he offered me a place to stay and food and we grew closer but we weren't in love, I didn't marry he out of love, I married him because I could see how much he loved that child and how much couldn't live without it." I can feel tears begin to rush down my face again "I did it because I was too scared to come home and I needed a reason to stay away because every fucking night I would lay awake and think about him, think about you and think about how much I wish he hadn't come home with all those lipstick stains and how much I wished that he had green fucking eyes" im panting and sobbing and Niall's watching "I wanted to Marry Harry, and I will always want to marry Harry, he's my soulmate but I now know" and I pause to catch my breath and steady my breathing

"I now know that too much has changed in over 365 days for Harry and I"

OMG I AM SO SUPER SORRY FOR NO UPDATE LAST WEEK!! I JUST LET THE TIME SLIP AWAY AND I APOLOGISE!!! But everything was explained In this chapter about the baby and the marriage so I hope you all understand now J but don't worry there will be more plot twist here and there! Anyway hope you enjoyed and as always comment and vote!! xx