Loud

Chapter 37

Pic above is of what Andy wears to the club! Enjoy x

Andy's POV

Love doesn't always work out the way we want, or the way we see it in movies, but you can't run away from it because the harder and longer you run, the more quickly and easier it catches up to you.

And I think Harry got a little tired and stopped running.

I hear a knock at the door but just like for the past 2 weeks, I don't move, I don't even make an attempt to move because Harry stopped running and I didn't so he's marrying her no. I hear distant voices but my mind refuses to allow me to listen in and I just want to stop being so tired and the days seem longer than normal. I hear steps make their way towards my room and end in front of my door "Andy someone is here to talk to you" but I don't turn towards him, I continue to look out the window and stay seated on the window sill. I hear him sigh and I've disappointed him but im so tired and Harry stopped running and I didn't "You can try talking to her but I don't think she's going to listen" and he walks away. There's silence and my mind wonders to who is standing in my door way, I can see a figure in the corner of my eye but the rain coming down outside seems much more interesting.

"Andy?" and I recognise that voice and I immediately turn around and I run into the arms of someone who might just understand how I feel "Gemma" and I feel her tighten her arms around me "Hey" I let out a breathe and she laughs lightly and pulls back "Hi" she's just as beautiful as I remember but she reminds me so much of him and that's painful "No offence love, but you look awful" and I know she doesn't mean it but im a little bitter and Harry stopped running and I didn't "Yeah well your brother is marrying someone, how am I supposed to look" and the smile leaves her face and it's replaced with pity "I know" and she sighs "That's why im here" and I knew that but I just really feel like talking about it right now "I don't want to talk about it right now Gemma" and I walk past her and sit back on the ledge and again the rain seems so much more interesting.

"You have to talk about it Andy, you've been cooped up in this apartment for 2 weeks" she pauses when I don't respond "He's worried about you" and I scoff "He doesn't get to be worried about me anymore" and she sits in front of me and places a hand on my knee "Andy, I know your mad, trust me I am too but letting yourself be consumed about this isn't going to help anything" the rain starts to look a little boring now "We work hard to make love work because we believe we need that person. We shouldn't settle for anything just because it's safe or easier and he settled Gemma, he doesn't really love her" she shakes her head but she still looks at me with pity "That might be true, but you have to let him figure that out for himself, he needs to realise that and he'll come back to you Andy, he always does" I stand up "No it's different this time, he's getting married!" I breathe in and out, in and out.

"He's actually getting married to someone else and I'm so done" Gemma doesn't give up "You can't give up on him Andy, he's just confused, he'll realise the mistake he's making soon enough and then you can swoop in and save the day and everything will be good again. Harry and Andy remember" I scream, I actually scream "No! There's no Harry and Andy anymore, were done, he's done, I love him and he's done so now I am too" and she jumps at my sudden outburst and Niall suddenly appears at my door looking concerned "What's wrong" he asks and Gemma looks at him and then back at me but I just shake my head and push past Niall and into the bathroom "Nothing" and I close the door behind me and strip down and step into the hot shower and let steam surround me and suffocate me because that is less painful than anything else I'm feeling.

I go back to my room and neither of them are in there and I decide then and there watching the rain fall outside my window and realising that Harry stopped running and I didn't that maybe it was time a took a break because I am just so tired.