Loud

Chapter 42

Okay so I wanted to start with saying so sorry for the late update but it's here so don't fret!! And also thank you guys so much for all the comments on my last chapter, I was super proud of the way I wrote it, I actually think I did a good job and I'm very happy with it so thank you so much!!

Just to let you guys know, Andy won't be in a lot of the chapters to come because she has left, but she will come back eventually and of course she will be mentioned, a lot ahahaha but for the story line I've got in mind this is what needs to be done SOOOO I HOPE YOU ENJOY THE CHAPTER!! x

Harry's POV

"Okay so I'm meeting with the wedding planner today and I need you to pick out of these two colour schemes" and I'm not really listening "So we can either go for the classic black and white or change it up a bit and veer for a white and pale blue, now remembering that it's an outdoor reception, should be perfect weather I'm predicating and that im thinking the bridesmaids dresses are going to be-" and I just nod not really concentrating "Harry are you even listening to me?" and I nod, still not paying attention "Yeah gold and white sound great" and she just lets out a groan "Harry would you just listen, these have to be picked out, please" and I sigh and turn towards her, away from the nothing I was staring at "Right I'm sorry, what did you say" and she just shakes her head like she's given up " black and white or pale blue and white?" and I really didn't care to be honest "Whichever you like most love" I say kissing her on the head as I get up to get another beer "You're no help" and I laugh "Love I don't know colours" and she just smiles "Alright well Gemma is coming with me so she will be able to help me decide, so I'm off I'll see you later tonight and let you know how it goes" she kisses me before grabbing her coat and heading out the door.

"Mate you need to talk to her" and I shake my head like he couldn't have said anything stupider and now I'm regretting asking him here "Niall, this is not why I asked you to come over, I asked you to come over to watch the game now please" and I turn back to the TV and he's quite for a while but how stupid was I to think that would last "She's a mess you know, she doesn't like to show it but you know her better than anybody, she doesn't like showing it, thinks she's bothering people if she does" and I turn to him "And you're bothering me by talking about, I'm getting married Niall, to someone else, she's out with a fucking wedding planner as we speak with my sister picking colours, it's better if she doesn't show it" and I don't mean it but I really just need Niall to shut his mouth and he takes the hint and is quite for the rest of the game but again of course that didn't last.

"You sure about this?" the games finished now so I have nothing to distract myself with to ignore me "Sure about what Niall?" I say bored of the conversation already, knowing exactly where it's headed "Marriage mate, it's a huge deal" and I groan and stand up picking up the empty beer bottles on the way "I'm done talking about this, I've told you that already" and follows me "No you said you didn't want to talk about Andy so we won't, I'm asking about you're plan to marry a girl you aren't in love with" he says with a smug smile on his face "I love Sam, otherwise I wouldn't have asked her" and Niall looks at me like I'm stupid "We both know that the only reason you asked her to marry you was because you're an idiot and you don't want to be alone" that's not true, I would know if that was the case "Niall shut up" he shakes his head

"There's nothing wrong with being alone Harry, sometimes we need it, just time to ourselves, without anyone else to depend" and im really sick of this conversation "Yeah I know what that feels like, remember Niall, when she left all of a sudden and didn't come back, without a word, not even the decency to tell us she was okay; she could have been dead for all we know" Niall looks taken back but he's not surprised "She was okay Harry, Andy was always going to be okay" and how could he possibly know that "How do you know that Niall? How could you have? I spent nights worrying she wasn't okay when she was actually out getting married and fucked by some guy named 'Leo' and-"Niall stops me "Harry stop, you now that wasn't the case" and I don't care, I really don't "Whatever Niall, I really don't care anymore" and he looks at me amused "You care Harry, just admit it" I wish he would wipe that smug ass look of his face "No Niall, I am beyond the point of caring what she does anymore" and I can tell he doesn't believe me but I'm telling the truth, I don't care anymore "We had sex" and the next thing I knew my fist is in his face and he's knocked into the fridge but instead of being offended or in pain he looks at me and laughs, walking towards me and patting me on the shoulder "Oh Harry my friend, you care a lot more than I thought" he chuckles before getting ice to put on his already swollen lip.

I care way more than I thought I did. Niall chucks me a smile before telling me he'll see me tomorrow for another beer even though I just punched him in the mouth but before he walks out he stops and smiles at me "Oh by the way, we didn't have sex; I just needed a way to prove you still cared about her" and he was right the smug asshole.

I think her going away will be good for me, for us. To not have to see each other, I need to focus on what's in front of me and even she said she wanted to move on and I want that for her too, I've never wanted anything else since she came back. I would be lying if I was to say that I didn't miss her and that I didn't want things to work out but how hard do you really have to try for something to work out. I hold the letter in my hand and I reread, over and over again because I find peace and comfort in it, a slight joy in the way she wishes nothing but happiness for me and herself and at one point that was each other but we both know times change and things happen and I hope wherever she is and whatever she's doing it's with a smile on her face because I care about and I guess I gotta thank Niall for that, should probably say sorry for hitting him too but he did that to himself so maybe I won't.

"Harry!" Sam comes into my view and quickly put the letter behind my back as she leaps into my arms and places a kiss on my lips" I have so much exciting news to tell you! The wedding planner was fantastic, she is so lovely and gave me some great ideas on what we can do to expand my already great idea's!" and I look at the letter and slowly place in the drawer behind me "That's lovely babe, whatever you want" and I flash her a smile actually deciding it was time to listen.

Andy wants me to be excited, she wants me to listen and I've got a wedding coming up and she's not here and I need to say sorry to Niall for punching him in the face and to get a bloody trim because Sam won't get off my back about and she's not here to tell me to keep it long so I book an appointment for a trim in a weeks' time, if she was here I probably wouldn't have but Sam smiles at me as I place the appointment, kissing me on the cheek before going into the bathroom.

But I can't help but wonder what she's doing, where she is and when she's coming home because no matter what, just like she said, she's my Andy.

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