Mphakamseni The Arranged Man

MPHAKAMSENI THE ARRANGED MAN

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3 MONTHS LATER

MPHAKAMSENI

Life has been very humble for us with no drama except for Nqobile breathing down my neck. Funny enough she thinks we dating, some woman are seriously stupid. If only she knew what we have in store for her she wouldn't be this desperate to ruin someone's marriage. She's threatening to go to the newspaper's to spit shit that I'm having an affair with her. Once I'm done with her she wouldn't have thought of messing with me. She's like a pest that has no direction in life. My life is very much drama free spirited. I wouldn't knew that one day I would be treated like a king.
I love how my life has turned out, we are now five months pregnant and guess what we are only having a set of boy's. These hormones have gotten worse, we hardly go to work cause we have been constantly sick lately but doctor's say it's normal, she will be fine when time goes by. I hate it when she gets sick cause it affects me to. I'm having a large family just like that.
My farm is doing extremely well and the relationship with my brother's has gone very tight on the past few months. Who would have thought that one day we would have this tight bond that we have between us. I want to suprise them with something but first I'm still looking at their behaviour and how they carry themselves. At some times I think that one day they will turn their back on me and destroy what I've build so hard. But my beloved mother advised me about second chances in life. I got another chance to be loved and cherished why not give them another chance in brotherhood. I love how my mother will never mislead me.
I'm happy for them that they have maned up and they are both in stable relationships. At first i didn't approve of Muzi and Khosi's relationship because of the age difference but they proved to me that age is nothing but a number. Muzi is thirty five and Khosi is twenty, but hy if they happy who am I to stand in someone's happiness and they actually look good and happy together. Sphe on the other hand has lost all his senses, BlackBerry is seriously driving him nuts. Lungelo went to study abroad, his young after all and he still needs to find himself. Being a pilot was his first option and luckiky he got accepted in the University of United States. The registration fee and accomodation were a steep and it left me bankrupt, but I'm not complaining I'm happy that he followed his dream. If he fails I'll cut his balls. Imagine the mother wanting to ruin the boys life. Zamkithi is really a devil. How can you use your own child for your own selfish needs.

We decided to drive down to KZN today the guys have been so eager to visit the farm. They are actually more excited than I am. When I turn to look at my life back than…- it's amazing how it has turned out in just a period space of time. As for Mama Penguin i don't know how she will survive this long distance since she has back pain issue's all the time.
"I'm hungry, " and she's in the urge of crying. I swear I'm never making my wife pregnant ever again. She just ate full kitchen few minutes ago, sometimes I forget she eats for the whole nation.
"What would you like to eat?" I ask, if I don't give her what she wants she will emotionally blackmail me with her tears.
"Tripple deck with pepperoni and cheese not forgetting a double cheese burger with large chips from steers." I don't know where all of that will go cause. Thula mtaka Bongekile. I bought her items as she requested taking a five minute break from driving.
I'm looking at her eating messing herself. She's even messing the car what what can I say. 
I bought a brand new car Hyundai HI G (Mircobus), since I'll be having a huge family, I have to prepare myself for the better. It's very smooth on the road and we all fitted perfectly. Gcina refused to come with us cause he enjoys playing with Zubby's Polo Vivo Comfortline, kids born in privileges I tell you. Micheal and Nana tagged along with their partner's also.
"How's you're Twinky doing?" Angela ask Nana who gave birth to a baby girl two months back but you wouldn't tell the way way her body is.
"My princess is fine ow God those little lips and those cheecks, how can I forget those tiny hands. I jsut feel bad that i left her behind but I trust my mother inlaw. You know w……." He husband cuts her shot. Nana can speak forever without stopping.
"Babe they only asked you how's the princess." Jack reminds her and with Nana being the dramatic Queen is mad.
"Mxm spoil mooder." She Huff's folding her arms dramatically making her husband to laugh. These two share a beautiful bond and I just wonder how this man keeps up with her.
Nana was blabbing all the way, she never gets tired of talking. Her husband was starting to fall asleep cause she had no full stop. If you fall asleep she will wake you up just to talk to you. I'm sure this one even talks in her sleep.
Angela and Sphe were right at the backseat engaging in their own conversation. Zelo was fast asleep on Phaka's lap and Khosi was starring outside the window thinking deeply her life and the man she's with.
"Pinky are you oky? You seem to be miles away." Muzi squeezes he thigh, I watching ever scene.
"Just thinking about school. What if they don't like me? Or get rejected?" Being outside the real world scared her alot. Maybe being indoors wasn't such a bad idea.
"Don't even think about it. Wena nje just think of this handsome face and your day will be good. She smiled and blushed. "That's the smile I'd love to see everyday." He kissed her hand making her flush like red tomatoes, Muzi smiled looking at her pink adorable face. He stared at her without saying any word.
"Stop starring, the last time you stared at me lasted for an hour. So don't stare please I beg. She says and Muzi laughs out loud throwing the weight of his head backwards thinking of the staring contest.

MUZIKAYISE

Now I understand most of the things that did not make sense at that time. The dream, everything is happening like I'm replaying a tape, it's like I'm re-living my life for the second time. The girl my father kept referring to was Nomkhosi my Pinky Fancy Face.
His exact words :- I know this girl might be young for you, but yourl were meant to be. Treat her right and you shall be blessed." And indeed ever since this woman came into my life I have been happy in a way I cannot explain.
Zubby turns out to be the best step father any son could ever wish for. I'm just happy that he treats my mother like a queen that she is. We let bygones be bygones and start afresh.

The letter my dad left me was heartbreaking, I'm breathing because of him, he took his last breathe because he was saving me, he sacrified his own happines because of me. I blamed myself for everything but again he told me to man up and live my life, but he only has one request. For his house to be taken care of and turn it into a home and I will honour his request. Zamkhithi will have be prepared for war. I love our brotherhood and I wouldn't trade it with anything. I have everything I need right infront of my eyes.

NOMKHOSI 

For the past three months I have been attending therapy and anger management classes and I must say it really helped me alot. I had so much anger in me but I was unaware of it. I no longer fear darkness. Muzi practically forced me to attend classes and I'm thankful for that, he took his time to attend classes with me. He knows about my past life experience but his still sticks with me. He accepted me with my scars and painful past. At first I wasn't quite too sure if I should date him or not since men were the creature I had beyond anything. I'm slowly healing and I'm slowly forgetting my past focusing on my future.
Next week I'm starting school and his mother paid for everything and I couldn't be more happier. Angela and I are still best of friends, Nana and Zelo are also pretty cool friends not even once they have mislead me. But treat one another as sister's.

When Muzi confessed his feelings for me a couple of weeks back. I was uncertain and I needed a motherly advice. Mam Bonge was the best candidate to assist me and I know she will never push me into the dungeon.
Her advice was :- "not all men are cruel, not all mean enjoy seeing other woman's pain, not all men have wicked hearts. What does your heart say? Do you feel anything for him? How do you feel around him? Does he make you happy? Talk to him about these stuffs, let him know what you scared of. I'm not sweet talking just because his my son, but I'm trying to open up your mind of what's expected between the two of you. Don't judge people because of their past mistakes, I know he made alot of mistakes growing up which I'm glad he told you. Think with your heart but not with your mind."

Talking to her really helped me. I've never had these kind of conversation with my own mother. So I later took a decision and try this dating department and it's been a month and I'm happy. Intimacy, I'm gald we touched based on that topic and I won't have any issues being intimate with him, and besides therapy is there to guide me in times like these.

What I've learnt is that pouring out your heart in your diary really helps, it stabilizes your anger and relaxes your mind.
Ive been looking for my father lately, i have a picture of him which I stole from my mother's belongings. With the help of the guys we actually found him and he works at the farm. Phaka said he saw him and he looks exactly like me, guess having his picture helped alot. Which means I will be seeing him, what if he also doesn't accept me? What will his family say? Does he have any other kids? I hope he accepts me cause honestly I wouldn't handle another rejection. Guess I'll just have to wait and see how this journey unfolds for me. Will it be a pleasant one or a heartbreaking one?