Mphakamseni The Arranged Man

MPHAKAMSENI THE ARRANGED MAN

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MAWE (KHOSI'S MOTHER)

If anyone told me that one day the man I chose to love over my own daughter would do this to me, I would have chosen my daughter over and over again. I've watched him and his son's molesting her since she was six year's old. She cried out to me, as a mother I should have protected her, I was suppose to be her sheild but I was an enemy for what? For a man who abuses me emotionally and physically today. Ever since Nomkhosi left with those people I don't even know, life has turned against me, I have now become their babrbie doll, their prostitute as they would call me. I catered and natured for these boy's but today they have the nerve to open my legs and exchange me like some kind of football. Each day I smell different semen, each day I smell different sweat. The pain Nomkhosi used to feel is now being felt by me. I thank God that she didn't fall preganat in the process but God didn't have mercy on me. I'm pregnant and I don't know who's the father of this baby I'm carrying. Is it Sipho's or one of his son's?
I look at Bathi the last born sweating on top of me with my legs wide open. His groaning and moaning with his eye's closed, while his other eldest son is already naked stroking himself waiting for his turn. Bathi pulls out after he releases all his cum on top of my stomach.
"Dear," Zipho commands me and I do as I I'm being told, I'm tired of crying, I've been silent for three months and the pain is slowly killing me. This is the same way my daughter use to feel, her cries that she cried silently for years, her hurt, I feel it too. I'm being torched the same way.
I was suppose to be their mother and they were supposed to be my kids. His breathes out loud meaning his done, he stands up cleaning himself and walks out of the room like nothing happend leaving me sobbing in pain.
I'd rather go hustle and stay on the streets than to live like this. I will go look for a job, with only grade 9 who would want hire an old pregnant woman who doesn't even know who the father of the baby she's carrying is?

ZAMKHITHI 

I just feel suffocated in this house, it's way too hot for my liking and this fan seems to be making it more hotter. I haven't been able to sleep for the last past three months, I'm a walking zombie. My eye's are swollen and baggy. I have been seeing things lately, things I can't seem to explain but i know they scary cause of the sounds it makes. It doesn't go a day without breaking a thing in this house. Whenever I try to fall asleep I feel like there's someone next to me or watching me, but when I look or touch i feel and see nothing. I always see shadows and I believe this house is being haunted. I think I'm having a paralysis. I think someone is bewitching me, come to think of It the car won't even start, i've called all kinds of mechanics, Indians, whites but nothing. Abaloyi are making things hard for me. I'm starting to run low in cash, I buy food everyday but it vanishes the next day. Maybe someone breaks in at night and steals all the food. This is just one fucked up situation.
"Who's there?" I hear shuffling's. I swear I must be going crazy. Is this some punishment or what. I didn't do anyone wrong. The noise continues to scare me and it's working over time. 
"Halo?" I always talk alone and I'm sure people think k I now go mad. I scratch my head as the back of my hair shrinks. Everything is just standing. If I don't get out of this house I will die.

NTOMBIZODWA

How the hell did Mdlalose find out about the kids? I know Cijimpi will never snitch on me. For the last couple of months it was a struggle for me, I watched my marriage crumbling down just like that. My inlaws are not making it any easier for me, they have been rejoicing that everything is going South. My kids are devastated especially Aneso since ngihlala naye. Anita is in a better situation cause she's living with her in-laws. I tried reaching out to the Ngcobo's since they are the only family I knew and grew up in, it just didn't end well. I know I'm not everyone's favourite and I've done alot of bad things in the past. Couple of days back I did a lot of thinking and came up with a conclusion to just give up and try to reconcile with my biological father Zulu maybe he will accept me with warm hands who knows. I've packed everything that belonged to me and I will leave this house in peace. I'm tired of fighting and I blame my mother for all of that. If only she was a true mother all of this would have been avoided.
"Uyaphi?" Mdlalose asks as he stared at the bags. I sighs zipping it, hopefully this is the bits of the last trash of mine.
"To look for a place to stay. I think it will be better this way. I tried and it failed, my marriage failed. I failed because I am a failure. Thank you for loving me even though I made your life hard but you were the best husband any woman could ever asks for." She tries holding her tears back but fails.
"And who's fault is that?" Mdlalose asks.
"My fault and I don't blame anyone but myslef. I thought I was doing the right thing."
"I knew a long time ago that I cannot have kids but that didn't give you the right to go behind my back and solving my issues. I know you were trying to prove a point to everyone that we can have kids, I know what you did was to make me a man amongst men but you went about it the wrong way." He tells her.
"And I'm sorry. I wish you all the best take care." She takes her bags.
"Don't make me mad, take back those bags and pack those clothes were they belong. If you promise me to change your ways we may work on our marriage. What will our kids say, don't give my family that satisfaction. I know you not perfect you have your flaws but please don't leave me."
"Don't play like that." She wiped her tears with a sad heart.
"Do I look like I'm joking? All I'm asking is for you to change your ways and be a better mother to our kids."
"I promise to change thank you for giving me another chance."
I never thought I will see this day. First thing I need to do is to apologize to my later brother for pushing him into the lions cage. I made my brother's house a circus, being given a second chance means alot. I won't mess this opportunity. God heard my prayers.

NOMKHOSI

I don't know if i took the right decision but my heart feels happy and my family was also happy for me. Muzi suggested to pay the bride price later this year than once his sorted out his life and once I'm also done with school he will give me the wedding of my dream. That was fair enough and we both okay with the agreement even though it's going to be the longest engagement ever, but we are both willing to wait.
The weekend at the farm was splended and refreshing, I felt like staying behind but then again I have to prepare for school. I've been so caught up in my own world that I haven't had time with the girls.
"So Angela ukaso." Khosi says pointing  at her engagement ring.
"I don't know why these guy's are in such a hurry. Part of me is happy part of me is scared. What if they change at a later stage and be people more like monsters." Angela says.
"I'm just glad that mina noMuzi managed to talk things through and understand each other. Communication is the best key in a relationship try talking to Sphe and share you're fears." Khosi's advises her friend Angela.
"I will support you in what ever decision you guy's make, as long as it makes you happy at the end." Zelo adds.
"I'm happy and I'm just having cold feet. So Khosi we doing this right?" Angela looks t her friend.
"Indeed we doing it." The do a group guy.
Marrying Muzi will be a huge step but the best decision I've ever took. My love for him is on the verge of making me cry. Where was he all my life? Where was he when I was drowing in sorrows? No use crying over spilt milk, no use mopping around my past I got to focus on my future.
"In that case welcome to the family boMrs Ngcobo the reload." Zelo screams in excitement.
"As for the reload sisi aykhona." They burst into laughter, laughing into Zelo's craziness.
I look at the two beautiful souls who are forever smilling. I'm grateful that I have them as my friends and sister's. I love them with everything in me.