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Comforting Karl

TW: Suicide, self harm, mention of eating disorders, intrusive thoughts, self hate

Karl sighed, shakily holding the pills as he sat in the kitchen all alone. Sapnap's sleeping, Q isn't here, nobody would even know until the morning..even then, who would care?

"Sa-Sapnap and Quackity pro-probably ha-ate m-e.." Karl choked out, crying softly as he opened the bottle and took a handful of pills out. "They don't want me around..I'm a burden to them..!"

Sapnap heard it. He heard Karl saying these things. Karl, hidden behind the kitchen counter, wasn't visible to him. And Sapnap hated all of this. He took a deep breath, and pretended he didn't hear anything.

"Karl, what are you doing? It's 4am, why aren't you awake?" Sapnap yawned. He was barely even awake himself.

"O-oh, Sapnap, hey d-dude what's up?" Karl sniffled, hiding the pills behind him. "Please don't see it please please please.." He thought.

"Karl..w-what did you just..hide behind your back..?" Sapnap asked, the worry he already felt just getting worse and worse.

"Wh-what are you talking about? You must be re-really tired Sapnap, I don't have an-anything!" Karl said through a smile.

That smile.
That's not his smile.
There's something wrong.

"Karl, please..can you come here?" Sapnap stood in front of him, his arms out to help the other man up.

Karl hesitantly nodded, trying to get up but failing miserably. It just worried Sapnap even more.

Karl was pale, he looked tired and weak, he looked completely out of it. He's just..not himself.

"Karl. Come here, I'll help you up.."

Sapnap went to help Karl up, just to see Karl drop a handful of pills and the open bottle on the floor, making it spill everywhere. A whole bottle of pain killers. What the fuck.

"Karl..why the fuck do you have those? W-What's going on?" Sapnap yelled, unintentionally yelling at Karl.

"N-nothing! Nothing's g-going on! I-I was just gonna try and g-get rid of my he-headache!"

Karl really is a bad liar, huh..

"Karl..what's going on?" Why the hell is he so light? And pale? And why does he look like he hasn't slept in a week?

Karl looked away from Sapnap, refusing to let his best friend know he was in such a state. He didn't want to burden him.

"No-nothing at all, honestly dude I-I'm fine!"

"Karl..can I ask why you're so..light? You feel so light and..fragile.."

Karl immediatly panicked, trying to get Sapnap to let go of him, but Sapnap was so much stronger than him.

That's when Sapnap noticed the cuts all over Karl's arms.

"What..happened to you're arms.."

"What? Sapnap you must be seeing things I-I have nothing on my arms!"

"Karl..I care so much about you, please, don't..don't do that..I know what you were doing.."

Karl looked over at Sapnap, tears in his eyes.

"N-No, you don't. Y-You and Q-Quackity hate me. Both of y-you barely tolerate me b-because of Jimmy. T-That's the only reason ANYONE c-cares about me. The people I'm fr-friends with."

Sapnap was heartbroken. "Th-that's what you think about us? All of us?"

"We-well isn't it t-true? N-no mather how much I-I love you guys y-you won't ever love a sc-rew up like m-me and-"

From here on it was written July 2022, before this was October-November of 2021
-KJ 🐝

Sapnap kissed him. He couldn't stand the words coming out of Karl's mouth, knowing damn well he cares about him. He really fucking cared about this man in his arms, who looked completely broken.

"Karl please, for the love of god, don't say that..I really do care..Quackity cares..Dream and George care..Corpse, Sykunno, Tubbo, Ranboo, Tommy, Bad and Skeppy, and literally everyone else! They all care about you!"

Karl looked upset. He looked sad, disappointed, angry, and so much more. But he nodded.

"O-okay.."

Sapnap put Karl back onto his bed.

"Now, get some rest, we'll talk about..whatever that was in the morning if you would like.." Sapnap said quietly, going to leave the room before he was stopped.

"W-wait..c-can you stay here..? I do-don't wanna be alone.." Karl said in a quiet and slightly raspy voice, likely from crying.

"Yeah, yeah I'll stay here with you.."

They both lay in Karl's bed, Karl still shaking slightly, but eventually calming down enough to get a bit of rest.

There was gonna be a lot of talking tomorrow.

Fuckin hell, that just reminds me of myself in October 2021 - April 2022.. anygays, hope y'all are well, and remember there's suicide hotlines if you ever feel like you may be a risk to yourself. Now get some sleep you exhausted MOTHAFCKERS <3
-KJ 🐝