I Could Neva (JGE RETRO)

Chapter 12....Rollercoaster

Sasha's P.O.V

I want to talk but I just can't. Shawn is really worried about me and I understand but its just like that. This lady is talking to me but I could care less. I don't need fucking help. I just want shawn to understand and talk to me. He acts like it wasn't a big deal. The therapist said something that made me clear my thoughts. "Sasha are you listening?" She asked. I looked her right in the eyes to let her know I "was". "Sweetie you have to talk, everyone is depending on you." She said. "Shawn, he really loves you, and he's told me how much he's excited to have a future with you." She said smiling. "He really wants you to talk to him, do you want to make him feel unloved and shut him out?" She asked. "He really needs you right now at this point, yah know with the death of his mother." She said sincerely. "You have to keep the communication going to build that relationship and make it stronger between you too" she said. "Shawn has told me that everyone is praying for you. JGE fans etc. I've also learned that you have a fanbase of your own." She told me. She's really starting to open up my eyes. Before I met Shawn my life was pretty boring and now with him in it it's been magical. He treats me like an angel, something I've never felt before. "Well honey, I'm going to go speak to Shawn and give you all the time you need" she said and walked out the door. I think I'm ready but I don't know. After an hour of thinking I walked to the door and walked outside to see Shawn and the therapist talking. "I'm ready" I said as they quickly turned their heads toward me. All I saw after that was smiling. "Hey you're back" she said proudly. Shawn quickly walked over to me and gave me a big hug. He knows I love them. "Well since its been almost all day, I'll see you two next Friday for our next session?" The therapist asked. "Indeed" Shawn said as we got ready to go. 

Tab's P.O.V

My baby is talkin now. "So wat u wanna eat?" I asked her. "Ummm I'm not hungry" she said . " Come on baby you ain't ate nothin since Wednesday and its Friday dats not healthy. U sharin wit me" I said to her.  "Baby im not hungrrrry" she said whinin. "Too bad" I said as I pulled into da bar parking lot. Iont eat fast food its not good for u. McDonalds, burger king, and allat...nah it ain't for me. "Come on let's go" I said and slapped her thigh. "Carry me prince charming" she said and jumped on my back. "Woaaah, u lucky u ain't dat heavy" I said laughin. We got into da buildin and waited in line. I out her down in front of me and wrapped my arms around her from behind. "Next person in line please" the lady said. We walked up to her. "Table for two please" I said as she walked us to a table inna back. "I wanna sit by the wall" Sasha said rushin to beat me. "Where u rushin to" I said laughin. I sat on da other side of da table" No sit by me" Sasha said. I sat onna side by her. "I gotta tweet da fans and tellem u aight" I said to Sasha and got out my phone. "They said they want us to do a livestream tonight, u up for it?" I asked her. "Yea, its cool, I miss them" she said and got on her phone doing somethin. We ate and left going home.

"Wssp unc" I said to Nelly and walked to my room holdin Sash hand. " Wssp Cat Daddy" he said. I walked in and closed da door. "Baby can u get da laptop from under da desk?" I asked Sasha as she sat onna bed. "K" she said and grabbed it. I set up the livestream and started. I went on twitter and tweeted dat I was live. Hella people started watching. "Wats good y'all?"I asked laughin. "So ima be answerin all yall questions so ask some." I said. And da livestream only poppin up on my phone so ima be lookin down a lot to read y'all shit" I said into da camera onna laptop. "Shout out to Kim, amber, Briana, Christina and all her friends, Tasha, brittnay,Taylor, u know errbody want dat shout out" I said. "Why haven't I been doin concerts lately?, Well I been u know takin care of Sasha and givin her da proper time she need, u know havin a gf u gotta sacrifice a lot for dem" I said. "Where is Shad?" " Shad is actually in da studio working on his verse for dis new song we got onna way ,I already did mine" I answered." Aye ima need y'all to take a screenshot of dis , me on live stream and tell eerrbody to watch me cuz we only got like 250 people rn and we need more, morrrrrrre" I said like a kid. "Oh she said she need a one on one chat session," I said reading comments "Who is that inna back?" " Dats Sasha" I said and smiled liftin da laptop puttin da camera on her and me. "Hey baby" I said. I put da laptop back down and read some more questions. "FUCK NAH,Im not a laker fan, I love LA but I am not a laker fan". "What traits do I look for inna woman?" "Physical Traits?, what traits" I asked laughin. "What make me different from other dudes?" " i dont like to be hard all da time. I think females like a dude wit a soft side and some dudes don't like to show dat side of dem. Yea me I like to cuddle and shit" I said and me and sasha started laughin."Baby they said y u not inna camera?" I asked Sasha. She came up closer behind me. "Sorry y'all I'm all in this phone, but hey" she said wavin. "They said do I get on yo nerves" I told her. "Yes" she said. "Damnnnn, u ain't have to put me onna spot like dat" I said laughin. "I still love u tho" she said and went back to her phone. "They said they wanna see us kiss" I told her. "Why y'all wanna see us kiss, y'all some lil freaky people don't y'all got some bfs, where ya Lil bf at, don't be cheatin on ya man" I said. "I'm a grown ass man, I'm too old to be gettin in trouble, he just be finding out da Lil stuff I do" I said talkin bout unc."Ya said y'all like when I get caught, u posed to be on my side, u ain't pose to like when I get caught". "She said am i a cheater, what?" I asked.  "Tré is getting ready for school, Stink is getting ready for school, and Nana is....u know in college umm getting ready for school. I'm the only one who ain't got school tomorrow" I answered. "Sasha wat u doin back there" I asked and looked behind me.  "Aye y'all dis girl trynna do da NaeNae" I said to da camera. They told me to dance. "Dance for y'all, iont know how to dance, y'all gotta yet Nana and Stink to do dat" I said. "Hold on y'all" I said and went to a text on my phone. "Ooo y'all I just got a text dat I'm gettin some new shoeeees, ayeeeee new kicks onna way" I said dancin. "Happy or nah ?" Sasha asked "Wat is fleek, y'all comin up wit some new slang?" I asked. "Omg you're so old" Sasha said laughin. "Aye iont know nun bout dat, and dats just cuz u a baby" I said to Sasha. "How old is Sasha?" Somebody asked. "Sasha 22 and I just turned 24" I said readin more comments. Tré came in. "Tab wyd?" He asked "on live stream" I said. He walked to the camera. "Wssp Dawgs" he said and backed up. " Aight I'm gone, wssp Sasha" he said and walked out. "How long have u and Sasha been together?" Somebody asked. " About 3 months now" I answered and went to the next question. "Do u like white girls?" "I like all girls whether they white black red purple blue, what my nigga tee say?" I asked. " Listen...Iont got no type....Bad bitches is da onky thang dat i like" i said laughin at da same time.I spent about a hour on live stream and it was time to get off. "Aight y'all its time for me to get off dis thang"I said and pulled Sasha closer to me. "Let's give them somethin to talk about before we go" I said and kissed Sasha then pressed the 'exit  stream' button.  "They prolly took a pic of dat" I said and checked Instagram. It was a lot of screenshots so I reposted a Lil bit. Damn phone be crackin on insta , I get like 2,000 likes in 1 minute. Crazy right?