I Could Neva (JGE RETRO)

Chapter 67... Did it Not Mean Shit?

Sasha's P.O.V
"How'd you get that?" I asked him as he held my everything in his hand. " What is "that"?" He asked staring intently at it. "Its a necklace, can I get it back now?" I asked and reached for it. Only for him to raise it high above is head. "Calvin give it back" I repeated. "Why do you want it so bad?" He asked raising his voice. "Because its mine, now give it fucking back" I said gettin upset. "Ha. Does this have something to do with that kid?" He asked mad. I stood there silent. "I thought so" he said before quickly walking away. "Calvin what are you doing?" I asked following him. We ended up in the bathroom downstairs. He reached for the toilet seat lifting it. "NO stop" I yelled trying my hardest to pull his arm back. "Tell me why the fuck it means so much to you Sasha!' He yelled making me flinch while holding the necklace over the toilet. "I don't have to explain myself to you. Just give me my damn necklace back" I said. "Just like I figured. You're still in love with that kid" he said and dropped it in the toilet. I ran to him and started hitting him. I can't believe he did that. I pushed him into the wall. He turned the other way and his arm flew right into my face as he backhanded me. I fell to the floor in pain holding my cheek. "Get out!" I said in a whisper realizing what just happened. "Baby I'm sorry, idk what came over me" he said trying to touch me. "Get out GET OUT GET TF OUT MY HOUSE!" I yelled as my eyes started to water. He walked out of the bathroom disappearing around the corner. I rushed to the toilet and quickly grabbed the necklace. I turned the sink on and ran it under the water then placed it around my neck. I turned the water off and looked at myself in the mirror. What happened to me. Who am I? This isn't the Sasha I know I am. I rubbed over the necklace remembering the voicemail I left him. Fuck he didn't deserve that. I promised him forever. Its up to me to save what we had... Have. I gotta see him and fix this. I ran to the front door and put my shoes on and grabbing my car keys from the hook and out the door I was. I'll deal with Calvin later
Lil Shawn's P.O.V
"Wad y'all think?" I asked afta finishin my lil verse. "Dope bro" Jb said. Da man at da boards thumbs up me. We been here all night. Crissy sleep onna couch. Ig we a go back toda hotel Inna lil bit. I put da headphones down and walked out da booth. "Aye Tab. We got a few girls onna way that wanna meet you" Ryan said. Anything wit girls . Shit I'm wit it. "Aw fr. Ion want no ugly girls" I said. He was quiet. Aww nah. "Well they ain't ugly. Aye just bare wit me, I got chu." He said. "U a fool" I said and laughed. Dey been a good turn up. "So I've been thinking about this track. When is Shad gonna be able to you know?" Jb asked. "Ig when we fly bacc home we-" I said befo he started talkin. "Wait you don't live in LA?" He asked. "Nah I'm Inna Lou rn" I told him. "Oh ok I understand, so when are you guys leaving?" He asked. "Maybe like tomar or da day afta dat" I said. "Aye can you like leave the day after, I kinda wanna take Crissy out" he said so only I could here. I knew he was feelin her. "Coo ". I answered. He walked bacc ova toda booth and went in. "Aye Tab" Ryan said and told me to come here. I looked and saw da girls he was talm bout. I walked ova dere. "How y'all doin, I'm Tab" I said lookin em up and down. "Hey its nice to meet you, I'm Lauren" da cute one sed. "I'm Jackie" da otha one said. "Well wssp I'm workin a lil bit rn but jus sit back and chill" I said to em and walked ova to watch JB. Da girls sat down. " That beat is fucking lit asf!" Jackie sed ova da music. Its loud as hell.Ig she like to turn up. Lauren onna otha hand kinda quiet. I think I can change dat. I grabbed my phone out my pocket and went to twitter. " wanna get to kno u " I tweeted and slid it bacc in. "Aye let's dance" Jackie sed standin up pullin Lauren wit her. Dey started grindin on each otha and it was kinda sexy. "Ooh shit!" Ryan yelled watchin em. He ran ova to em. "Threesome in this bitch!" He yelled and started dancin wit em. Dats hella funny. I got my phone and looked at da time. I felt a tap on my shoulder and looked at who it was. "Hey" Lauren said. "Wssp?" I asked and put my phone in my pocket. " How about we go....somewhere private" she said in my ear. Can't nobody hear shit ova dis music. My eyes got wide den a mfcka ya digg! "Aye ima be back!" I yelled to JB and followed her out da room. She grabbed my hand and dragged me to a door. "Janitors closet" it read. We walked in and she closed da door behind us. Ohh shitt nigggaa its finna get a lil mmm. "Sorry I jus had to get away from all of that" she said and let go of my hand. Wad!? "Oh I thought u was.." I said. "No ,no I'm not like that," she said. "Well Lauren, wad u like?" I asked. "I'm a lil shy. But I like to party and have fun, here give me your phone" she said. I handed her my phone and watched her type sumn in. She handed it back. "Its my number. We shoulda talk sometime" she said and smiled. I smiled back and nodded. She opened da door and walked out leavin me in here still thinkin bout dis shit. Damn. Afta about a lil min I walked out and went back toda room. "Well well well, if it ain't Mr playa playa" Kyle said. Ig dey think we did sumn. I looked ova and saw dat Crissy was woke talkin to JB. Iain see Lauren and Jackie. Ig dey left. Ima lil tired. " thanks cuhh I think we gon head back toda hotel" I sed to Jb. "Oh cool, I'll talk to u later" he said and hugged her. "Alright bro" he said and we did a handshake. "Aight ima see y'all later" I said toda othas and we walked out. Da driver opened da door and we got Inna back of da truck. Few minutes later we made it toda hotel and Crissy was knocked tf out snorin and shit. Da man carried her cuz iain wanna wake her up. Once we got toda room I opened da door wit da key and he put her in her bed. "Thanks man" I said and he left. I thought about it and got my phone out. I clicked my contacts and saw wad Lauren put. I clicked her name and went to message her. "Aye its me Tab" I sent. Her ass reply fast. "Hey wyd" it said. "Nun jus got bacc toda hotel. Wad u doen?" I sent. I put my phone onna charger and took my joggers off leavin me in my shorts. And took my shirt off and got Inna bed. *beep beep*. I looked at da message. "Oh at my cousin Sasha's boutique wbu?" I said. Sasha. I jus remembered. da voicemail. I exited out da messages and went to da voicemail icon and da last one I got was from Sasha. I smiled and clicked it. Afta loadin it started to play. "Umm Shawn. I know you may not believe me-" it started. I smiled hard. Ik she want me bacc. Wait fo it. I Been waitin for dis shit." but I want you to move on because I have and I don't love u anymore. You disgust me and I'm happier than ever since u left. Calvin just turned out to be who I needed and u, u were a mistake. Goodbye Shawn. Don't try to contact me or even come by my house anymore because every time I will reject u and get my BOYFRIEND to beat your ass,-" she said. I heard a lil laugh Inna back. Wtf? I'm confused asf nah mean? I'm pissed. "I don't wanna ever see you again. And please delete my number out your phone. I hate u, I just hate u so much, I'm sick of yo shit and u just, just kill yourself" she said. I threw my phone against da wall before it ended. Iain wanna hear dat shit. Kill myself? Sasha a neva say no bullshit like dis. I couldn't help but laugh! I got out da bed and punched da wall. Mad asf. Did wad we had not mean shit to her? "Shawn are u ok?" I heard. Crissy walked ova to me and I jus busted out cryin. Ik y'all prolly sayin ima soft ass nigga but fuck wad y'all think."Its ok, I'm here" she said and hugged me. Dis shit go up nd down. "I gotta go" I sed and started to walk toda door. "Wait, what happened. Can u just talk to me? I'm supposed to be your bestfriend" she said. I walked bacc ova to her. "I listened to da lil voicemail Sasha left me" I told her. And all da shit she said "I'm sorry, ik she didn't mean it u don't deserve the way you're treated" she said. I looked in her eyes and leaned in pressin my lips against hers. She pushed me away. "No. Stop. This can't happen. I think u should think about this. Ik Sasha didn't mean what she said. She loves you and u love her" Crissy said. "Idgaf about Sasha rn" I yelled and got up and started pacin da floor. "Calm down" she said. "How tf can I calm down?" I asked and grabbed my phone off da floor before walkin out da room slammin da door. Somebody finna pay. Ik some shit ain't right. Need to go outside for some air. I grabbed my phone. "Lauren, u think we can meet up or sumn?"
Sasha's P.O.V
I can't find him anywhere. I went to Nelly's house and nobody has seen him. I should've never sent that. I...I told him to kill his self. What have I done? I grabbed my phone and dialed his number before being sent to voicemail. Come on Shawn answer. What if he did wat I said? I dialed the one person I could think of that would know where he is. Shad. It rang for a bit and he didn't answer. Fuck. How could I let Calvin do this to us? I can see Tiffany laughing at me now. This is what she wanted and I let her win. The light turned yellow and I sped up trying to beat it but it turned red right before I went through it. Next thing I heard was sirens and saw blue and red lights in my rearview mirror. My eyes blurred from tears. I pulled over to the side of the road and let my window down. "Ma'am why did you run the light?" The cop asked. "I'm sorry. I don't know what to do. Umm my boyfriend was abusing me and I was trying to get away' I lied. "Ok ma'am. I'm gonna let you go this time but don't let this happen again and slow it down or next time its ticket" he said. "Thank u so much" I said before he walked away. I drove off and got on the highway. Maybe he's at that spot. *ring ring ring ring* I grabbed my phone quickly answering. "Hello?" I asked sniffling. It was silent on the other end before the line went dead. I made it to the spot and got out the car running. I looked around and didnt see him. He's not even here. My worst nightmare. Losing him. The shit we survived and i let a boy come between us because of a bitch that i thought he was cheating with. All I wanted was a fairytale ending.....