I Could Neva (JGE RETRO)

Chapter 26....You're Everything

Recap: Shad had to choose between Kiara and Keeso but the decision had become hard as he thought about a good way to provide for his son SJ.

Shad's P.O.V

"I mean........I wanna see my son every chance I can, but I think ima roll wit Keeso for a Lil while." I said and looked at Kiara. I could tell she was pissed but we gotta move on. What was had was real as hell and special. Sometimes it don't work out da way u want tho. "So that's it?" She asked. "Wym?" I asked back. "All this time you've been flirting with me and sending me the wrong message and now u say its over?" She asked raisin her voice. "Dont yell at Sad mommy" SJ said and ran to me. "Wow, you've turned my own son against me, quite funny" she said and started crying. "Kiara stop, u makin a fool outta yoself. SJ love u and u know dat." I said. "Come on Sj, let's go upstairs and play while mommy and daddy talk" Keeso said and took him up. I was kinda scared at first but then knew she wasn't gon do nun to him. "Shad what happened to forever love?" She asked me. "Kiara u know I love u, I'm just not in love with u" I told her. Wth is her problem. "I shouldn't have let u go that day" she said crying harder. "How could I have been so stupid?" She asked herself. "Stop Kiara, I'm sick of u makin this all about u, yea I was hurt but its over now, I'm only doing this for my son" I told her for the fifth time. This girl just will not get over it. " u act like u don't care" she said. "Well wat am I supposed to do Kiara?" I asked " I want us to start over, everything " she said. "Its too late for dat, its been 3 years, move on"I said and walked away. "You're breaking my heart" she yelled after me.

Keeso's P.O.V

SJ is a Lil cutie pie. Look just like his daddy. Maybe that's y Kiara has been holdin on for so long. Like girl y'all was together 3 years ago, move on or something, he don't want u he want me. "TT Keeswo when am I weaving?" Sj asked. "Idk Lil boy" I told him and got on my phone. All of a sudden Shad comes in. "What happened?" I asked him. "Nothing its fine" he said. Ik he's hiding something. "Dada" SJ said. "Dada?" Shad asked as if he was surprised. "What is Kiara doin?" I asked. "Iont know man she trippin" he replied. I wanna go talk to her but u know what happened last time. It ain't turn out too good. "Should I go talk to her?" I asked. "Iont think u wanna go down there rn, she needs time to herself to think about dis stuff. " he told me and it made a lot of sense.

Kiara's P.O.V

How could he say those things. He's not the same Shad I knew back then, They always said that Money changes u. I wanna leave tonight. Actually I have to leave tonight. I can't let him see me like this. I pretended to be Strong and confident when I was just acting so he could follow his dreams. I couldn't ruin that with a baby. I suffered everyday after that. SJ looks so much like Shad it became depressing. Seeing him every morning thinking of Shad was not something you'd wanna go through. I hate to leave my baby but I think he'd be better off living with his dad. He could help him grow to be a better Man than I ever could. I can't teach him about sports and girls and things a dad just discuss with his son. I just can't. I've decided to leave tonight when everyone is sleeping. That way I don't cause a scene.

Shad's P.O.V

I been in my room for the rest of the day thinkin. Keeso came in a few times to check on me but iaint heard from Kiara. Maybe she's mad. I should head to the studio to get some things off my chest, that could help. I even thought of some new lyrics while I was layin here. *ring ring* *ring ring* *ring ring* . Damn who callin this late."Hello" I said into da phone. "When u comin to get da rest of yo shit?" Markita asked. "Wheneva" I said. "Well dis bullshit need to be out my house by tomorrow night or its gon be sittin out waitin for yo ass at da door" she said and was about to hang up. "Wait" I yelled. "What?" She asked. "Did u move on?" I asked her. "Why does it matter?"  She asked. "Look Markita, I wanna apologize for the way I've been actin, I love u" I said and she hung up. Damn iont think she gon eva get back wit me. She been holdin a grudge ever since u know what. I understand where she coming from tho, but still gimme a break. "Dada?" SJ said and walked in. "Wssp Lil homie" I said as he tried to get in my bed. It was hella funny how he was strugglin. I pulled him onna bed. It was his bed time anyway. He laid down next to me and fell asleep about 5 minutes later. Its a perfect time to get on da snap. I recorded about 10 stories. Aye don't judge, a nigga got bored. I looked at my recent stories and saw dat Keeso just made one. "Its like I love u but u keep playin games" she said lookin at the camera. Hmmm wonder who she talkin bout. I mean Iain playin games. Its just hard rn. I got this baby mama drama. Ain't been makin money since Tab had all his drama. Its like our lives just real fucked up at the moment but ik god gon make it better for us. Everything happens for a reason. Its like 12:00 now. I just been sittin up all night thinkin. I'm tired now. I looked to my side and saw SJ knocked out snorin and shit. Do I snore? Dats a good question. I gotta ask somebody one day. Anyway lemme stop stallin and take my ass to bed.

Kiara's P.O.V

Its 2:00 am and everyone else is sleep. Its time for me to leave. Nobody appreciates me here. Not even SJ. Ever since I told him Shad was his dad they've been joined at the hip. I'm upset but proud that he gets to grow up with a father living a happy lifestyle. Of course its heartbreaking that its not with me but Shad was right. I do have to deal with it and everything doesn't last. Well like this. I'm leaving tonight and I've decided to leave SJ with Shad. Hell have a better life growing up with him and I'm sure Shad would enjoy that. I went upstairs and packed my stuff leaving SJ's behind and peeked in Shad's room seeing them both sleep. It was is cute. They both were snoring and had their mouths open. I walked in quietly and kissed SJ on the cheek walkin back out the door. "Mommy loves u" I whispered and walked downstairs. I made sure I had all of my bags before I officially left so I wouldn't have to come back. Yep I got everything. This is it. I took one look back at the house and left without saying goodbye. It was the only way we could all get what we wanted. Keeso could have Shad. SJ could have good support growing up, and I could move on knowing that my son is happy now and where he should be. With his daddy.......

*9:00 am*

Shad's P.O.V

Ugghhh I woke up wit back pain. I'm good its just SJ movin around and stuff all night. I sat up and looked around. Da damn sun shining all in my eyes. Wtf its too early for this shit. I grabbed my phone off the nightstand and looked at the time. Dang 9:06 am. I thought it was like 6 sumn. I need to get out da bed. I walked downstairs and I guess Keeso wasn't up yet. Hmm coo. I walked in the kitchen and it was a note on da fridge. I read the top. Its from Kiara. It read: I wanna say sorry to everyone I've upset in this house. Keeso, I'm sorry for disrespecting u and telling Shad things he didn't need to know, Shad, I'm sorry for trying to love u when u didn't love me back. You're Everything I've always needed and SJ, I'm sorry for not giving u the life u deserved. Hopefully Shad could be a great father to u. I've decided to leave town and start my own life somewhere else to become a better person. Please dont come and try to find me. I'll keep in touch some time. Love, Kiara. Fuck, she left me with SJ. I've only known him for like 3 days. I don't know how to take care of a baby. I gotta find her before its too late. I ran to the front door and looked around da porch. Seeing her get in a car and it sped off. Dammit. I walked back inside and closed da door puttin my hands on my head. How am I gon explain this to SJ. She can't just up and leave him with strangers. Well IG we aren't really strangers anymore. "Goodmorning" I heard from the stairs. Good here Keeso comes. Can u see the sarcasm? I don't need anymore problems rn. "Mornin" I said not havin it. "What's up with u?" She asked. "Kiara, she just up and left me wit SJ, how am I gonna take care of a baby?" I asked. "Shad, its not that hard, and plus I could help u, im sure SJ wouldn't mind a Mommy #2" she said. Hmmm mommy #2? That reminds me that I didn't even ask her out yet. I'm just not ready for a relationship. "Keeso, I really like u, but I'm not ready for this. We could be friends but nothing more at the moment" I told her and she was a Lil disappointed but shit happens. Maybe SJ being here is a sign. I need to find Tab so I can grind harder for my son. Become a better person for him. Lemme call em rn. I pulled my phone out and Keeso walked upstairs givin me privacy. *ring ring* *ring ring*

"Wats up nigga?" He asked. "Bro u remember Kiara?" I asked him. "Oooooh big booty Kiara?" He asked laughin. I could tell his dumbass was smilin tho. "Yes man Kiara, Kiara" I told him. "Wat aboutasked. " He asked." She came to Keeso house right?". "Right". "And they cousins" I told him. "Damn playa u fuckin cousins awwwww shitttttt" he said inna high ass voice. "Well anyway that ain't the point" I said. "Wat happened, they fought ova yo ass?" He asked. "Nah man just shut up and lemme tell u wtf happened" I said. "Aight man I was jes trynna lighten da mood nahmean don't get mad cus yo dusty ass in trouble" he said. "Anyway man, she came Wit a Lil boy and told me he was my son" I said. Tab started laughin. "Damn cuhh dats some shit right der" he said. "Ik man now she gone and left me wit em" I said and he laughed again. "Do he look like u?" He asked. "Yea nigga a mini twin" I said. "Damn send me a pic" he said. "Ok but yo ass needa get on track, we needa be in the studio, we can't take care of our business broke man" I said. "I got chu, just lemme handle all dis and Ima roll by der later maybe, just call me if sumn else happen. Aight derrty." He said and hung up. Damn shit still aint made no sense in my mind. *knock knock*. Somebody knockin onna door. I guess I'll get dat it might be Kiara. I opened it. "Markita wat u doin here?"